Can you believe it?! Time is zooming! I love listening to 103.5 play Christmas songs all day. I loveeee it, seriously. Makes me think happy thoughts.
How was Thanksgiving / the weekend?! For me, I had a good weekend, I suppose. On Thanksgiving night, I opened 0ur room door too quick & the fan fell from the window and spilled some prettttty nasty stuff all over our pillows so we had to suffer a couple days without pillows. That kinda made me moody. But since I couldn't get much sleep, we were up at 6am on Black Friday. We went to to Best Buy & he bought himself another Xbox since his elite crashed (he just put the elite's hard drive to his new one harhar). That's all he bought since everything else was pretty useless. He already bought a lot of stuff during last year's Black Friday. For me, we went shopping at the mall! Mark treated me to some Victoria Secret & Forever 21. (: And that was my day.
Yesterday & today have been more relaxed. We finally bought our pillows last night; ahhhh, so comfy. Makes me so happy, especially my new body pillow. I wanted to get the Snoogle pillow at Target, but I'm debating whether I'll need it or not. Maybe when my bump is huge, I'll need it. As of right now, I'm doing okay. It's just annoying sleeping on my sides (I complain about this too much). Oh, and I finally bought some Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula for the stretchmarks. Gross. OH YEAH, I took pictures of my belly the other night. Yuck. I look like I'm 5 months pregnant already! BAHAHA. And no, I will not show you guys. Not yet. hahaha.
Medi-Cal gives me a headache. I received a bunch of mail from them, requesting me to fill out all this other paperwork / sign paperwork / send copies of documents / go to this one office in Rancho Dominguez to show proof that I'm a US citizen. And the office needs me to go there by December 5, and Mark has school everyday. GAHHH! This gives me such a headache. I cried because I was so stressed ): My social worker (who's also Filipino) reassured me that everything will be okay. I was hoping to get accepted for insurance soon since my appointment is this upcoming Friday so I guess I'm going to have to cancel the whole screening procedure. I'll just get the ultrasound. I want to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time. Aww. I just want to know / see that everything is okay in here. I was watching child birth videos on YouTube. GOSH! SO CUTE! I was all tearing up. It makes me anticipate that moment when I'll be lying on that hospital bed, waiting hours until I'll be ready to POP! And there will be my little baby! Aww. So exciting. I was also looking at ultrasounds at 14 weeks. Jeez, those little things like to MOVE! I can't imagine it because I don't feel a DAMN thing. It's insane. The fetus is so wild at 14 weeks; new life amazes me. If you guys see them on YouTube, you'll know what I'm talking about.
Being emotional lately has taken over me. Whatever I hear or watch, I tend to wanna cry. And sometimes I get moody & take it on Mark (like always, even before I was ever pregnant..oh well). I feel bad that he has to put up with me and my neediness :| But I guess I'll get over it soon. It's the sickness too. Today I felt so nauseated ): It makes me sad to think that I can't go out to certain places because of how sick I feel. And I hate how it's real good on certain days & then on days I wish I didn't feel sick, I'll be sick. Sigh. I hope that during my 2nd trimester, things will change. Another thing that amazes me is how quick my nails grow. I miss getting my 3D nails!! ): My nails grow soooooo quick that I have to cut them every 4-5 days. They look and feel so healthy though (: It's okay, I'll probably get them done around the baby shower or something! Bringing it back. Haha.
Well I just got finished with my test on the ABC website and now I gotta finish up on some laundry since Mark needs clean uniform for school tomorrow. Have a good night everyone.
Hmm, Cyber Monday?!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thank you for...
-My parents and siblings. Although we don't ALL always get along and disagree on so many things, no matter what I will always be there for them like they've always been there for me. Although I don't get to spend enough time with them, I hope they know that I love them all very much, and that I'm hoping through all these rough economic times, that God will listen to their prayers &guide them through it (especially my dad).
-My good friends. Although I don't have many friends, I'm grateful for the limited number that I have-- great, understanding friends who I enjoy the company of / having great conversations and laughs with. Remember that I will always be here to talk to, vent to, go shopping with, you know, all that good stuff ;)
-My dogs! Oh, you guys have NO idea how much happiness my dogs bring me. I love spending a lot of time with them. If you've never experienced this type of "relationship" with a pet, especially dogs, you are definitely missing out. I miss my dogs already! They are sooo very special to me. Also, I'm thankful for having Margaux in my life. My dogs really impact the way I live my life...they are seriously my motivation.
-My loving boyfriend. I seriously wouldn't want anyone else on this earth. I am FOREVER grateful for being incredibly blessed by having him in my life. No one else shows as much care, patience, love, affection, and dedication as he does. No one else understands me as much as he does. I'm so glad that in whatever I do, he and I go through it together. We makes the best memories. I love my Markie always. He's my everything.
-My unborn baby. Now that's the one thing I'm most thankful for this season. Although I'm still young & things happened unexpectedly, having a baby is a GIFT and a true blessing. I am anticipating my new life of constant crying, strollers, baby poop, diapers, baby food, booties, soft blankets--sigh (: Mark & I are going to be the dopest parents ;)
-My life. I know there are times when I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I get so emotional and weak when I have a rough day or when I feel like huge failure, but I pick myself up realizing what I've got and how fortunate I've been. I watch the news about the missions helping out for Thanksgiving, feeding those in need. It made me so sad. I am just lucky, like many of you guys, to have a life where our parents have raised us & gave us many great things to guide us to live a good life.
I hope everyone has had a safe and happy Thanksgiving (: I didn't get to see my family today since we already celebrated it last weekend, but Mark & I celebrated by pigging out at Black Angus because they always have their $16.99 unlimited turkey special. Mmmm. I'm full now, sleepy, and suffering from butt cramps (lol). Much love! Goodnight.
-My good friends. Although I don't have many friends, I'm grateful for the limited number that I have-- great, understanding friends who I enjoy the company of / having great conversations and laughs with. Remember that I will always be here to talk to, vent to, go shopping with, you know, all that good stuff ;)
-My dogs! Oh, you guys have NO idea how much happiness my dogs bring me. I love spending a lot of time with them. If you've never experienced this type of "relationship" with a pet, especially dogs, you are definitely missing out. I miss my dogs already! They are sooo very special to me. Also, I'm thankful for having Margaux in my life. My dogs really impact the way I live my life...they are seriously my motivation.
-My loving boyfriend. I seriously wouldn't want anyone else on this earth. I am FOREVER grateful for being incredibly blessed by having him in my life. No one else shows as much care, patience, love, affection, and dedication as he does. No one else understands me as much as he does. I'm so glad that in whatever I do, he and I go through it together. We makes the best memories. I love my Markie always. He's my everything.
-My unborn baby. Now that's the one thing I'm most thankful for this season. Although I'm still young & things happened unexpectedly, having a baby is a GIFT and a true blessing. I am anticipating my new life of constant crying, strollers, baby poop, diapers, baby food, booties, soft blankets--sigh (: Mark & I are going to be the dopest parents ;)
-My life. I know there are times when I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I get so emotional and weak when I have a rough day or when I feel like huge failure, but I pick myself up realizing what I've got and how fortunate I've been. I watch the news about the missions helping out for Thanksgiving, feeding those in need. It made me so sad. I am just lucky, like many of you guys, to have a life where our parents have raised us & gave us many great things to guide us to live a good life.
I hope everyone has had a safe and happy Thanksgiving (: I didn't get to see my family today since we already celebrated it last weekend, but Mark & I celebrated by pigging out at Black Angus because they always have their $16.99 unlimited turkey special. Mmmm. I'm full now, sleepy, and suffering from butt cramps (lol). Much love! Goodnight.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
13 weeks!
Today Janelle came down to go do a little shopping (: We had lunch at Pat & Oscar's & then headed around the mall since Janelle had a few things to pick up. The only store I found myself truly dedicated to was Forever 21. I think I picked up 10 things to try on, and I bought 8 of that 10 lol. It's hard fitting into my current clothes now that my belly's popping out ): I mean, when I'm 6 months maybe I'll accept wearing tighter clothes, but right now I don't wanna just look "fat". I was so hot inside Forever 21 (shopping is hard work), but once we stepped outside, it was sooo cold! I was surprised it hadn't started raining. We got my usual Jamba Juice then we headed for Target.
Okay, don't get me started with these freakin' emotions you get while being pregnant. I was talking to Janelle earlier today about how whenever I see a romantic or sad movie or even a freakin' commercial, I start to tear up. Anyways, getting to my point, once we got to Target, we went to see what Janelle needed to get then we started walking around the store. The baby section obviously gets me excited, but unfortunately I can't buy anything since I don't even know the baby's gender. We were walking the car seats aisle, but when we walked into the next aisle, there was a father and his daughter messing around, and the little girl was joking around saying, "Mommy, mommy! Daddy hurt me!" and the mom and dad were laughing along with her...IT WAS JUST TOO CUTE TO WATCH. And guess what happens to me?! I STARTED CRYING. It was just tearing up at first, until I realized I couldn't control myself, trying to prevent the tears from coming out. Janelle kept saying, "Oh GOD Cholo, no are you serious? Cholo, no way." Omg. I was crying! It was because I saw how happy that family was, and it makes me so emotional to think that THAT'S what I'll be going through in the upcoming few months, not to mention, years to come. It made me so happy! It's still a shock to me. I haven't cried about my pregnancy ever since I first found out about it. It really hit me when I saw that family together. Janelle couldn't stop laughing at me! And I mean, shoot, if it was the opposite way around, I think I'd be laughing at her too. She was like, "Should we go home now?!" LOL. I was like, "YES PLEASE." and this lady walked passed us and asked me, "OMG! What's wrong?! Are you okay?!" How embarrassing. Janelle told her, "Oh no, she's fine. She's pregnant. We just saw a family in the baby section & she got emotional." And the lady was like, "Ahh, I see....the hormones. Go home & get some rest!" Haha. Wow. I'm pathetic. But I'm sure once you guys are pregnant (or already have been), you'd understand. Until this day I still cannot believe what Mark & I are going through--I'm so excited. Ahhh. No more baby stores/sections for me. I'll just start bawling like an idiot.
So now I'm officially 13 weeks pregnant! Right now I feel nauseous because of my prenatal pills that I take during dinner. Ahhh. My stomach is stretching by the week. I feel it (and see it). And I'm starting to feel cramps. I'm wondering whether it's because my uterus is stretching or if I'm really GASSY (ahahahahaha). It's making me so uneasy! Sigh. And when I sleep, I don't feel comfortable lying on my stomach like I always do. I get tired on my sides already. I really would love a maternity pillow to cuddle with because Mark's not all that soft and comfy. haha. By the end of this week I will be in my 2nd trimester. Weee! It's a goal! I've been google-ing up "13 week pregnancy pictures" to see what others pregnant bellies look like! After seeing those pictures, I don't feel so bad (or fat). Well, I still do feel fat, but that's typical of me. I'm also obsessed with rubbing my belly while I'm in bed & talking to my unborn child in my head. I might sound crazy, but I think it works! Mark wants to start playing Mozart through headphones so the baby can be smart. Haha. I don't know if that'll work, but we'll definitely let the baby listen to some good music. Maybe some Paramore (; I'm excited for next week so see another ultrasound. I can't wait to see how much our fetus has grown! Also I'll be getting blood drawn to see any abnormalities (did I write about these already?) and whatever tests that are normally done around this time. Wish us luck, please! Keep us in your prayers that baby Chantarawong is healthy!
On another note, I got rid of my iPhone ): I miss that phone already. It was such a fun little gadget. What happened was, on Sunday (while I was in Palmdale) when I was charging my phone on my laptop, I was playing music on iTunes, and it asked me if I wanted to upgrade to 2.2. I was stupid enough to say YES, and since I use my phone on T-mobile, I needed this spare ATT sim card that I left at home in Torrance. So I couldn't upgrade my phone right away, and when I got back home to Torrance, I tried doing all the special switching of sim cards crap that I alwayssssss have to deal with, but it wasn't working. That crap drove me to my last nerve. I am tired of always having to switch my sim card everytime my iPhone dropped service for more than 5 minutes. I always have to stop what I'm doing, sit in the middle of a mall, or sit in the car, taking out the sim card & switching it out to another phone blahblahblahblahblah. It was just too much. Althought I LOVED my iPhone, I couldn't bare with it, and I just need to settle with a T-mobile phone in order to avoid service issues. I called someone yesterday to meet up with them to buy a T-mobile G1. Their ad said it was a black phone, and when I met up with them in Carson, it was a bronze. That was frustrating, having to deal with traffic on PCH for nothing. Then I called this other person who was selling it for $300, and he told me he'd be able to drop it off for me later on after he got out of work (he works at T-mobile at Del Amo, as he said) He said he would've been out by 5pm, but the wait got later..and later..and later..and by 8pm, I called him back and he said, "OH! I was about to text you and tell you that I'm going to be a little late." Next thing I know, it was 11pm. I gave up. So this morning, I bought one off Ebay for $280. WOO! And he was kind enough to send it using overnight shipping. So I'll be getting my new phone in tomorrow (: Good, cuz I'm tired of using this boring Razr.
Ahhh, the rain is getting louder and louder. I'm pooped & full of El Pollo Loco. Delicious! I hope everyone's being safe. I have to continue helping Mark with his algebra homework. Have a good night!
Okay, don't get me started with these freakin' emotions you get while being pregnant. I was talking to Janelle earlier today about how whenever I see a romantic or sad movie or even a freakin' commercial, I start to tear up. Anyways, getting to my point, once we got to Target, we went to see what Janelle needed to get then we started walking around the store. The baby section obviously gets me excited, but unfortunately I can't buy anything since I don't even know the baby's gender. We were walking the car seats aisle, but when we walked into the next aisle, there was a father and his daughter messing around, and the little girl was joking around saying, "Mommy, mommy! Daddy hurt me!" and the mom and dad were laughing along with her...IT WAS JUST TOO CUTE TO WATCH. And guess what happens to me?! I STARTED CRYING. It was just tearing up at first, until I realized I couldn't control myself, trying to prevent the tears from coming out. Janelle kept saying, "Oh GOD Cholo, no are you serious? Cholo, no way." Omg. I was crying! It was because I saw how happy that family was, and it makes me so emotional to think that THAT'S what I'll be going through in the upcoming few months, not to mention, years to come. It made me so happy! It's still a shock to me. I haven't cried about my pregnancy ever since I first found out about it. It really hit me when I saw that family together. Janelle couldn't stop laughing at me! And I mean, shoot, if it was the opposite way around, I think I'd be laughing at her too. She was like, "Should we go home now?!" LOL. I was like, "YES PLEASE." and this lady walked passed us and asked me, "OMG! What's wrong?! Are you okay?!" How embarrassing. Janelle told her, "Oh no, she's fine. She's pregnant. We just saw a family in the baby section & she got emotional." And the lady was like, "Ahh, I see....the hormones. Go home & get some rest!" Haha. Wow. I'm pathetic. But I'm sure once you guys are pregnant (or already have been), you'd understand. Until this day I still cannot believe what Mark & I are going through--I'm so excited. Ahhh. No more baby stores/sections for me. I'll just start bawling like an idiot.
So now I'm officially 13 weeks pregnant! Right now I feel nauseous because of my prenatal pills that I take during dinner. Ahhh. My stomach is stretching by the week. I feel it (and see it). And I'm starting to feel cramps. I'm wondering whether it's because my uterus is stretching or if I'm really GASSY (ahahahahaha). It's making me so uneasy! Sigh. And when I sleep, I don't feel comfortable lying on my stomach like I always do. I get tired on my sides already. I really would love a maternity pillow to cuddle with because Mark's not all that soft and comfy. haha. By the end of this week I will be in my 2nd trimester. Weee! It's a goal! I've been google-ing up "13 week pregnancy pictures" to see what others pregnant bellies look like! After seeing those pictures, I don't feel so bad (or fat). Well, I still do feel fat, but that's typical of me. I'm also obsessed with rubbing my belly while I'm in bed & talking to my unborn child in my head. I might sound crazy, but I think it works! Mark wants to start playing Mozart through headphones so the baby can be smart. Haha. I don't know if that'll work, but we'll definitely let the baby listen to some good music. Maybe some Paramore (; I'm excited for next week so see another ultrasound. I can't wait to see how much our fetus has grown! Also I'll be getting blood drawn to see any abnormalities (did I write about these already?) and whatever tests that are normally done around this time. Wish us luck, please! Keep us in your prayers that baby Chantarawong is healthy!
On another note, I got rid of my iPhone ): I miss that phone already. It was such a fun little gadget. What happened was, on Sunday (while I was in Palmdale) when I was charging my phone on my laptop, I was playing music on iTunes, and it asked me if I wanted to upgrade to 2.2. I was stupid enough to say YES, and since I use my phone on T-mobile, I needed this spare ATT sim card that I left at home in Torrance. So I couldn't upgrade my phone right away, and when I got back home to Torrance, I tried doing all the special switching of sim cards crap that I alwayssssss have to deal with, but it wasn't working. That crap drove me to my last nerve. I am tired of always having to switch my sim card everytime my iPhone dropped service for more than 5 minutes. I always have to stop what I'm doing, sit in the middle of a mall, or sit in the car, taking out the sim card & switching it out to another phone blahblahblahblahblah. It was just too much. Althought I LOVED my iPhone, I couldn't bare with it, and I just need to settle with a T-mobile phone in order to avoid service issues. I called someone yesterday to meet up with them to buy a T-mobile G1. Their ad said it was a black phone, and when I met up with them in Carson, it was a bronze. That was frustrating, having to deal with traffic on PCH for nothing. Then I called this other person who was selling it for $300, and he told me he'd be able to drop it off for me later on after he got out of work (he works at T-mobile at Del Amo, as he said) He said he would've been out by 5pm, but the wait got later..and later..and later..and by 8pm, I called him back and he said, "OH! I was about to text you and tell you that I'm going to be a little late." Next thing I know, it was 11pm. I gave up. So this morning, I bought one off Ebay for $280. WOO! And he was kind enough to send it using overnight shipping. So I'll be getting my new phone in tomorrow (: Good, cuz I'm tired of using this boring Razr.
Ahhh, the rain is getting louder and louder. I'm pooped & full of El Pollo Loco. Delicious! I hope everyone's being safe. I have to continue helping Mark with his algebra homework. Have a good night!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Sup?
Being in Palmdale can be very boring sometimes, but it is pretty quiet, and I love spending time with my family & dogs. Mark & I arrived here on Friday night. Bonnie's nose isn't black anymore! It turned pink which is very common in dogs, especially Labs, due to cold weather. It's starting to get cold @ night here in Palmdale, and during Winter it gets unbearable. Bonnie's lucky she has her own big insulated house. Too bad Chumbah wrecks everything inside the house (blankets and toys) so he has to sleep in another house.
For the past 2 mornings I haven't been able to sleep in because Chumbah knows I'm home. His pen is right below my room, so starting from, I'd say, 6am, he'll just continue to bark. And it's not like barking at a stranger or anything random; it's the cry for attention and food and more attention. My dad said that he doesn't even act like this at all when I'm not home. Ay, Chumbah! Drives me crazy, that big boy with a little kid attitude. If you say "Bonnie, Bonnie" he starts crying & barks at you. If you say Cinnamon's name, he barks at you. He's a little baby. Ha. I love that dog.
I've been cleaning the house all weekend. I'm exhausted. I'm so used to just being a bum at home in Lomita, doing absolutely nothing but going online, watching tv, laying in bed, and eating a lot. I'm not used to cleaning at home over there because I'm scared of what and what not to touch. But when I'm here in Palmdale, I clean everything. I was pretty exhausted Friday night after all the sweeping, vacuuming, dusting, feeding the dogs, dish washing. Ahh. Overworking the pregnant chick, I'm sure.
Yesterday we had our early Thanksgiving dinner since my parents are going to be in Vegas on the actual Thanksgiving day. My dad makes the turkey every year; mmm it was delicious. Then there was all the typical Filipino food that I don't usually care for, haha (except the traditional Valerios' pandesal, yum). I tried to eat as much as I could. My mom invited a huge amount of her coworkers so they filled up the house. Only a few relatives came by. I sang a couple songs off the karaoke & was too tired after that. I had been up since 7am all because of Chumbah's nonstop barking.
The most interesting part about yesterday was when my brother & Mark got into a huge debate over Proposition 8 (because my brother voted 'yes') and it turned into this huge mess. It was brought up because I asked my brother if he voted. I don't even know HOW we ended up talking about it, but we did. We weren't trying to argue with my brother; we were just trying to state our opinion. My brother says he has nothing against gay people, but that he doesn't believe they should get married. Mark & I argued over why that isn't fair. My brother thinks that it seems pretty fair to him because gay people have all the rights as everyone else except to get married. Well, exactly OUR point. They have all these rights BUT marriage so why hold back from that? They can have 99.9% of human rights as everyone else, but that's still NOT 100%. Even if gay people getting married doesn't SEEM like a big deal to other people, it is. They wouldn't have created a Proposition 8 if it WASN'T a big deal to them. I told my brother, "What about when they have colored bathrooms back decades ago? They fought for their rights and were brought justice." My brother said, "I think if you said that to black people, they would get offended." HMM, NOT REALLY. The guy who was IN that commercial for "NO ON PROP 8" was a black guy talking about how they used to never have rights, how Armenians were never allowed to live in the Central Valley, how African Americans weren't allowed to ride buses. Have you guys seen that commercial? They used to play it a lot before election day. So anyways, no, I don't think black people should be offended really. Also another thing, I told my brother, "It's like saying mentally challenged people couldn't get married." And you know what my brother said? He said, "That's totally different. Mentally challenged people don't have the capacity to get married." Now I think that would offend people. Not everyone who's disabled is STUPID. My goodness. The decision isn't based on RACE, MENTAL STATE, SEX, OR RELIGION. This is based on human rights and how EVERYONE in this country deserves 100% of it. My brother kept saying, "You guys will understand when you have your kid one day." Um, I really don't know WHAT that's supposed to mean, but if my kid turned out gay, I honestly don't give a damn. As long as my child is responsible and healthy, live your life! I told my brother, "That's another thing when I was watching those 'yes on 8' supporters. They were telling the interviewers how they're voting because they believe in the 'FAMILY' and that they're afraid that their children will turn out gay. They're also afraid of gay marriage being taught in schools. Never once in a public school was I ever taught about MARRIAGE. In a Catholic school, yes, because it's part of religion, but you SWEAR Christian schools are going to TEACH gay marriage? Ahhh, that's so ignorant. My brother believes that gay people recruit MORE gay people. I honestly don't see gay people standing on corners saying, "HEY..HEY YOU...wanna be gay?!" like WTF?! I hate how people are so ignorant to judge. That's just plain rude. No common sense. Gay people come from straight people, no? It's all connected. These "YES" supporters can believe in whatever they want, but I just wanted my brother to just hear us out; we're not trying to change his mind rather to just have him listen. He had the nerve to say that we don't know what we're talking about because we're still young. MMMMM HMMM. Religion also. Religion plays such a huge role, and my brother admitted that his decision was mostly because of his beliefs. Christians obviously don't believe in gay marriage, and all my brother could say was, "Most of California voted YES on Prop 8 anyway, why can't you guys accept it?" Um, we UNDERSTAND they voted yes, but we lost by only 5%. That means MANY are against it as well. It makes me so sad. I cry when I think about how discriminating people are. My brother said, "If the whole country were to vote, most would vote yes because the USA is highly populated by Christians." I understand that as well, but shouldn't human rights be based on RIGHTS, not a BIBLE?! Then my brother got into the subject about how statistics state that domestic violence is HIGHER with gay couples compared to straight couples. WHAT THE FUCK?! Straight couples obviously outnumber the population of gay couples, how can you prove that that's entirely TRUE? Statistics doesn't include the whole country, I'm sure. Okay, so you're saying that we gotta vote "Yes" on prop 8 because if they get married, there will be more domestic violence? Violence occurs EVERYWHERE. No matter what, there is violence. Single, couples, gay, straight. Who the hell said MARRIAGE is gonna create more violence? If there are already gay couples out there living together, does that make a difference? The "married" title is going to cause more trouble? See, that I really didn't understand. We kept telling him that "Love is what matters in marriage. If they want to be together forever, why is it such a problem?" Apparently my brother's definition of "marriage" is something else. God knows. When my brother would state his opinion, Mark would respond with, "I understand." But when we stated OUR opinions, my brother would laugh at us and say that we make absolutely NO sense. He said we obviously have more to learn in this world. Riiiiiiiiiiiight. So that aggravated Mark. Mark kept telling me, "I don't understand how I can sit here and talk to him like an adult, but he talked back to me like I'm stupid." Mark was very passionate about stating his opinions about the proposition & didn't appreciate my brother mocking or laughing at him. I told Mark to calm down & relax, but it turned out to be another one of our fights. Of course I agree with everything Mark said (because I was stating my opinion half the time), but I got tired of talking and just wanted the whole thing to stop. If anyone is offended by reading this, DON'T BE. We are just strong about the situation. Even though it doesn't even involve us, we believe in equality and everyone sharing the same rights and happiness as the rest. We love everybody! And animals! (haha) Mark even said himself that when he was in his psychology class, his teacher asked, "Who believe that it's wrong to test on animals, including rats?" Who was the only person to raise his hand? Yep.
But yeah, Mark and I argued after the whole debate because he got mad at the fact that I kept teling him to calm down and be quiet. He kept thinking that I wasn't "on his side" which I obviously WAS if I was arguing with my brother as well, but Mark was too angry to understand it at first. He was so mad so he ended up going home at like 9pm while I was left alone (me and fetus) in my room. I stayed in my room all night and tried to sleep. Bleh.
So that was my weekend. Sorry about the huge paragraph over Proposition 8; I'm sure all you other "No on Prop 8" supporters fully understand. On another note, my sister's boss said that she's giving us a crib! That's pretty nice of her especially since I've never even met her at all. Another one of my sister's co-workers is giving us a bouncy chair. Aw. I love generous people. I appreciate all the support. About one more week & I'll be in my 2nd trimester! Crazy how time flies. There have been some nights when the nausea gets REALLY bad though. Ahhh, it drives me crazy. Just when I thought it was slowly going away, it comes back. Ah, the ups and downs of pregnancy.
Well, I guess I gotta wait until my sister and her bf decide to head home so I can tell Mark to pick me up. I'm bored. Sigh. Bye everyone!
For the past 2 mornings I haven't been able to sleep in because Chumbah knows I'm home. His pen is right below my room, so starting from, I'd say, 6am, he'll just continue to bark. And it's not like barking at a stranger or anything random; it's the cry for attention and food and more attention. My dad said that he doesn't even act like this at all when I'm not home. Ay, Chumbah! Drives me crazy, that big boy with a little kid attitude. If you say "Bonnie, Bonnie" he starts crying & barks at you. If you say Cinnamon's name, he barks at you. He's a little baby. Ha. I love that dog.
I've been cleaning the house all weekend. I'm exhausted. I'm so used to just being a bum at home in Lomita, doing absolutely nothing but going online, watching tv, laying in bed, and eating a lot. I'm not used to cleaning at home over there because I'm scared of what and what not to touch. But when I'm here in Palmdale, I clean everything. I was pretty exhausted Friday night after all the sweeping, vacuuming, dusting, feeding the dogs, dish washing. Ahh. Overworking the pregnant chick, I'm sure.
Yesterday we had our early Thanksgiving dinner since my parents are going to be in Vegas on the actual Thanksgiving day. My dad makes the turkey every year; mmm it was delicious. Then there was all the typical Filipino food that I don't usually care for, haha (except the traditional Valerios' pandesal, yum). I tried to eat as much as I could. My mom invited a huge amount of her coworkers so they filled up the house. Only a few relatives came by. I sang a couple songs off the karaoke & was too tired after that. I had been up since 7am all because of Chumbah's nonstop barking.
The most interesting part about yesterday was when my brother & Mark got into a huge debate over Proposition 8 (because my brother voted 'yes') and it turned into this huge mess. It was brought up because I asked my brother if he voted. I don't even know HOW we ended up talking about it, but we did. We weren't trying to argue with my brother; we were just trying to state our opinion. My brother says he has nothing against gay people, but that he doesn't believe they should get married. Mark & I argued over why that isn't fair. My brother thinks that it seems pretty fair to him because gay people have all the rights as everyone else except to get married. Well, exactly OUR point. They have all these rights BUT marriage so why hold back from that? They can have 99.9% of human rights as everyone else, but that's still NOT 100%. Even if gay people getting married doesn't SEEM like a big deal to other people, it is. They wouldn't have created a Proposition 8 if it WASN'T a big deal to them. I told my brother, "What about when they have colored bathrooms back decades ago? They fought for their rights and were brought justice." My brother said, "I think if you said that to black people, they would get offended." HMM, NOT REALLY. The guy who was IN that commercial for "NO ON PROP 8" was a black guy talking about how they used to never have rights, how Armenians were never allowed to live in the Central Valley, how African Americans weren't allowed to ride buses. Have you guys seen that commercial? They used to play it a lot before election day. So anyways, no, I don't think black people should be offended really. Also another thing, I told my brother, "It's like saying mentally challenged people couldn't get married." And you know what my brother said? He said, "That's totally different. Mentally challenged people don't have the capacity to get married." Now I think that would offend people. Not everyone who's disabled is STUPID. My goodness. The decision isn't based on RACE, MENTAL STATE, SEX, OR RELIGION. This is based on human rights and how EVERYONE in this country deserves 100% of it. My brother kept saying, "You guys will understand when you have your kid one day." Um, I really don't know WHAT that's supposed to mean, but if my kid turned out gay, I honestly don't give a damn. As long as my child is responsible and healthy, live your life! I told my brother, "That's another thing when I was watching those 'yes on 8' supporters. They were telling the interviewers how they're voting because they believe in the 'FAMILY' and that they're afraid that their children will turn out gay. They're also afraid of gay marriage being taught in schools. Never once in a public school was I ever taught about MARRIAGE. In a Catholic school, yes, because it's part of religion, but you SWEAR Christian schools are going to TEACH gay marriage? Ahhh, that's so ignorant. My brother believes that gay people recruit MORE gay people. I honestly don't see gay people standing on corners saying, "HEY..HEY YOU...wanna be gay?!" like WTF?! I hate how people are so ignorant to judge. That's just plain rude. No common sense. Gay people come from straight people, no? It's all connected. These "YES" supporters can believe in whatever they want, but I just wanted my brother to just hear us out; we're not trying to change his mind rather to just have him listen. He had the nerve to say that we don't know what we're talking about because we're still young. MMMMM HMMM. Religion also. Religion plays such a huge role, and my brother admitted that his decision was mostly because of his beliefs. Christians obviously don't believe in gay marriage, and all my brother could say was, "Most of California voted YES on Prop 8 anyway, why can't you guys accept it?" Um, we UNDERSTAND they voted yes, but we lost by only 5%. That means MANY are against it as well. It makes me so sad. I cry when I think about how discriminating people are. My brother said, "If the whole country were to vote, most would vote yes because the USA is highly populated by Christians." I understand that as well, but shouldn't human rights be based on RIGHTS, not a BIBLE?! Then my brother got into the subject about how statistics state that domestic violence is HIGHER with gay couples compared to straight couples. WHAT THE FUCK?! Straight couples obviously outnumber the population of gay couples, how can you prove that that's entirely TRUE? Statistics doesn't include the whole country, I'm sure. Okay, so you're saying that we gotta vote "Yes" on prop 8 because if they get married, there will be more domestic violence? Violence occurs EVERYWHERE. No matter what, there is violence. Single, couples, gay, straight. Who the hell said MARRIAGE is gonna create more violence? If there are already gay couples out there living together, does that make a difference? The "married" title is going to cause more trouble? See, that I really didn't understand. We kept telling him that "Love is what matters in marriage. If they want to be together forever, why is it such a problem?" Apparently my brother's definition of "marriage" is something else. God knows. When my brother would state his opinion, Mark would respond with, "I understand." But when we stated OUR opinions, my brother would laugh at us and say that we make absolutely NO sense. He said we obviously have more to learn in this world. Riiiiiiiiiiiight. So that aggravated Mark. Mark kept telling me, "I don't understand how I can sit here and talk to him like an adult, but he talked back to me like I'm stupid." Mark was very passionate about stating his opinions about the proposition & didn't appreciate my brother mocking or laughing at him. I told Mark to calm down & relax, but it turned out to be another one of our fights. Of course I agree with everything Mark said (because I was stating my opinion half the time), but I got tired of talking and just wanted the whole thing to stop. If anyone is offended by reading this, DON'T BE. We are just strong about the situation. Even though it doesn't even involve us, we believe in equality and everyone sharing the same rights and happiness as the rest. We love everybody! And animals! (haha) Mark even said himself that when he was in his psychology class, his teacher asked, "Who believe that it's wrong to test on animals, including rats?" Who was the only person to raise his hand? Yep.
But yeah, Mark and I argued after the whole debate because he got mad at the fact that I kept teling him to calm down and be quiet. He kept thinking that I wasn't "on his side" which I obviously WAS if I was arguing with my brother as well, but Mark was too angry to understand it at first. He was so mad so he ended up going home at like 9pm while I was left alone (me and fetus) in my room. I stayed in my room all night and tried to sleep. Bleh.
So that was my weekend. Sorry about the huge paragraph over Proposition 8; I'm sure all you other "No on Prop 8" supporters fully understand. On another note, my sister's boss said that she's giving us a crib! That's pretty nice of her especially since I've never even met her at all. Another one of my sister's co-workers is giving us a bouncy chair. Aw. I love generous people. I appreciate all the support. About one more week & I'll be in my 2nd trimester! Crazy how time flies. There have been some nights when the nausea gets REALLY bad though. Ahhh, it drives me crazy. Just when I thought it was slowly going away, it comes back. Ah, the ups and downs of pregnancy.
Well, I guess I gotta wait until my sister and her bf decide to head home so I can tell Mark to pick me up. I'm bored. Sigh. Bye everyone!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Margaux...
...would've turned 1 year old yesterday. Today's her 1 month death anniversary so I dedicate this song to her. If you have ever seen I AM LEGEND starring Will Smith, this song plays when he was giving his German Shepherd Sam a bath, and he was singing it to her. *tears* She played his best friend throughout the movie until she died. That movie was what motivated me to get me a German Shepherd puppy. Even though it still makes me sad, I know that everything will be alright for her. I love you Margaux!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Vegas & Paramore: Update
Yeah, I have so much to write. I've been too lazy / tired. Vegas burnt me OUT! Nasty! And yesterday I was obviously too worn out to write. So where to begin...
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Thursday morning I woke up early around 8am to get everything ready for the trip. Man, I was sleepy. I made Mark wake up so I could finally gather up all the bathroom stuff that we'd need. By 10 we had everything ready, but we had to go run a few errands, and by 11am, I asked Mark, "Did you bring your wallet?" He's like, "Oh shit..no." "Are you lying?" "No, I really don't have my wallet." So we had to drive back from Carson for him to retrieve his wallet. ahhhhhhhhhh. Then by 11:20ish we finally hit the freeway. Check-in at the Luxor was at 3pm, and I was thinking we'd get there around 4. The drive was wearing me out since I woke up so early, and the air was so dry it was making it hard for me to breathe (it hurts when it's dry, if you know what I mean). So I fell asleep. Next thing I knew, we were already passed Barstow, and I asked Mark, "How long was I asleep for?" He told me, "20 minutes." WTF? Apparently he was driving somewhere over 100mph, so we ended up reaching Vegas at like 2:30. That was fast. And when we got to the Luxor, we had to carry all our luggages and it started hurting my back so I felt bad for Mark having to carry 5 bags on him. We totally forgot that we could've used valet parking so we were killing ourselves. Once we walked in the hotel, I had to cover my face with my sweater due to all the second hand smoke. I looked like a little girl. Whatever. I have to do whatever it takes to protect myself! Our room was on the 21st floor and ended up being on the complete opposite side of the elevator. AHHHHHHHH! I was already thinking, damn, this isn't going to be fun. When we opened our room, there were 2 full size beds. Not 1 king size bed like we reserved. I WAS LIKE WTF! Whatever. I didn't even wanna both complaining. Mark didn't care because the room was bigger anyway. Another thing that annoyed me: no wireless internet. I had to connect the ethernet cable to my laptop which wasn't even LONG so I had to drag a table in front of the TV, and stretch the cable out to connect. There wasn't an outlet nearby so I had to stretch my laptop charger across the tv and closet. Talk about ghetto. Another thing: NO REMOTE. What kinda fucking hotel room doesn't have a remote for their tv?! So Mark & I had to walk up to the tv and manually change the volume or channel. Yeah, we were pretty lazy to complain. I can complain and talk, but I didn't wanna have someone come up to our room. I was already too tired. Sigh. So for one thing, NO, I wouldn't wanna stay at the Luxor ever again, but we did have a nice view.
We went to the Carnival World Buffet at the Rio. It's a really popular buffet; many people love going there. When you walk in, you have to pay at this little computer screen where you can scan your credit card or place cash in. Imagine if it was a long line..it woud lag. But anyways, it was a Thursday night so there was no one in line (thankfully). I walked in and was in SHOCK by all the different and many kinds of foods all over the place. That place is big. I got everything I wanted on my plate(s), but once I tried the food, it didn't WOW me. Something was too salty or too plain or the flavor just wasn't right. There is a bunch of dessert to choose from as well; they even have a little gelato bar. Mark tried the mint chocolate chip..GROSS. I LOVE mint chocolate chip, but their version gave me the nastiest after taste. I thought I was gonna barf. That's how bad it was. Too strong. But their chocolate flavor was good; chocolate cake, yuck. Apple pie, good. Overall I give this place a 6/10. It's sad to say, but I even like Hometown Buffet better.
After dinner, we went to the Paris hotel and went up to the top of the Eiffel Tower. The view was pretty. We even got to see the Bellagio water show while we were there. It was nice. After that, I was pretty worn out. It was only 8pm, but being me, I can't be out for too long. So we went back to our hotel and called it a night. Mark was pretty tired, I'm sure; he only had like 4 hours of sleep before we left for Vegas.
PICTURES FROM THE PARIS HOTEL--from my Myspace.
Friday, November 14, 2008
It was already 10am and I had been up for an hour. I kept bugging Mark, WAKE UP WAKE UP! BABY IS HUNGRY!! DON'T KILL YOUR BABY! I was freakinnnnnnnnnn hungry! I didn't wanna order room service..that stuff is WAY too expensive. So finally by 12 he had his ass out of bed & got ready to go eat some brunch. We had IHOP (: I love that place. I always love their food. MMMmmm breakfast with pancakes. I love it. After breakfast, we headed to Caesar's Palace and parked our car. We decided to walk around the more southern part of the strip. We walked to the Wynn hotel to see what it was like inside. It's so fancy. And so pretty! Have you guys ever heard of the VERTU cell phone? Well the Wynn has an official Vertu shop, and these cell phones go for A LOT. A LOT A LOT. If you think $800 is a lot being spent on iPhones, shit, try $300,000!! LIKE WTF, RIGHT?! Here, watch this video:
Anyways, after we walked around the boutiques, we headed to the Ferrari/Maserati showrooms. Those cars are nice! Yeah, now if I wanted to spend $300,000 on something, it would at least be one of those cars. SHEESH! But yeah, this is the only authorized Ferrari dealership in Nevada. Nice stuff. He also had a Nissan GT-R..the Skyline! That thing is a beast.
After the Wynn, we decided to head back to our car, we walked around the mall then headed back to the car. I was dehydrated. Being pregnant gets in the way of a lot of things. I get too exhausted :( I told Mark that I really had a hard time walking! And I was wearing comfortable slippers & everything. It's just hard. A lot of walking tires me out. So we headed back to the hotel, took a short nap, and before I knew it, we had to go head out for some dinner & to the Blue Man Group show.
The Blue Man Group was soooooo fun! We had poncho seats, so we were in the 4th row. It's really fun being much close compared to the back. The back seemed bored, and everyone in the front rows were really interactive. It's funny watching their facial expressions too. Mark had a really good time; he said it was pretty much one of his favorite shows that he's seen. It was at 10pm, so when we got there, I had a HUGE headache (from being exhausted), but I enjoyed the show regardless. Good performance.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I woke up around 6:30am realizing that Mark wasn't in the room. He went to play black jack..I KNEW IT! I had a feeling he'd come back soon, which he did, 10 minutes later. He lost $100 but he said he'd go back down. Yeah, whatever. Liar. I knew he was too tired because the next thing I know, he was snoring next to me. Mmm hmm. 3 hours later I woke up & had to prepare to pack all our stuff. We had to check-out by 11am, so poor Markie had to wake up after only a few hours of sleep. Once we checked out, I didn't know where to go! I had already eaten because I couldn't wait for him to wake up so I ordered that expensive room service crap. $16+ for just 2 pieces of ham, 2 toast, scrambled eggs, and hash browns. IHOP is wayy better. lol. But whatever, I couldn't let myself starve, right? Baby needs to eat! But yeah, we headed to the outlets so see what we could find. I found it sad how I couldn't shop for anything. Nothing fits anymore. There's no point in me buying shirts because my belly's popping. And I don't really care for pants because I was on my diet & still hadn't reached my goal. DAMNIT! But Mark went shopping at Zoo York & Ed Hardy/Christian Audigier. He got himself some nice clothes. I was sad. I couldn't get anything. After the outlets, we decided to rest in the car. Aj, Mark S., and Don weren't gonna leave until around 2pm, so we had to wait for them to get the Vegas because without Aj, we can't check into a hotel. I told Mark that WE should've reserved the hotel ourselves, damnit. I let Mark take a nap in the car outside the outlets, but then I got hungry so I wanted some Jollibee. After dinner, we called the guys to see where they were at. Mark & I were sitting in the Best Buy parking lot..waiting. Due to the fires in SoCal, there was traffic, so the guys didn't get to Vegas until around 8. We finally checked into our hotel room at the Tropicana. Wooooo ghetto hotel! It wreaked of cigarette smoke, but we had a little patio so the guys could go out & not pollute my baby. We had dinner at the ChinChin restaurant over at New York New York, and we had some ice cream. After that, I knew the guys wanted to go out and have some fun so we went back to the hotel, and I got myself ready for bed. They all went out to the MGM to go gamble.
I was having a hard time falling asleep. The bed wasn't comfortable, and since we were on the same level as the casino, I could smell the smoke. I was soooooooo aggravated, I wanted to cry. I had to cover my face with one of Mark's clean tshirts so avoid the smell while being able to breathe at the same time. I ended up getting a headache, and I had the feeling that I was going to get sick. It just wasn't a good sleep for me. I just wanted to go home already. I'm pregnant, not even 21, with nothing to do in Vegas. Mark & the guys finally got back around 5:30am, and they all knocked out.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
In the morning I woke up first, like always. I took my shower first since I knew the guys were all gonna take turns taking a shower before check-out time. Mark S. woke up 2nd, and then everyone else. Aj was talking in his sleep, and it was cracking me up. My Markie woke up with a hangover. Poor thing. Everyone told him to yack. I guess he did but it wasn't good enough. They wanted to eat at the World Buffet again. This time there was a line so it took a while to get seated -_- Sooooooo many people. I ate a few things, but not too much. It's so expensive, but if you can handle buffets then it's good for you. Mark was still feeling sick, and all he ate was 3/4 of a taco. He paid $25 for 3/4 of a taco and some orange juice. LOL. Poor guy. He could've gotten that at a Taco Bell. After brunch, we headed to the outlets again. Boring for me because like I said, I couldn't get anything.
Then finalllllllllllllllllly. FINALLY. We headed for home!!! We stopped by an In N Out around Barstow for some dinner and finally we reached home at around 10. I LOVE HOME!
Yesterday, Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I left around noon to go pick Ryan up in the valley. I got there, ordered me some take out at Mission Burrito (which is my family's favorite Mexican food restaurant), and we headed for Hollywood. We got there at 2pm, and the crowd wasn't as bad as a I thought. On the news the night before, people were saying how there were crowds CAMPING outside of Hot Topic. Like wtf? But I didn't think it would be so crowded, and it wasn't..just yet. Ryan & I showed our wristbands and stood/sat in the middle. We were pretttttttttttty damn close. SO close to the stage. I ate the rest of my food, and about 10 minutes later (around 3pm), I started feeling nauseous. It was strange. I felt like I needed to throw up, and that my head was spinning. I started getting dizzy, and I could barely talk, so I rushed out of the crowd to sit outside. I caught my breath. I wanted to lie down so bad. I was sweating, DRASTICALLY, all over my body. It was insane. I've never felt this way before ever since I've been pregnant. I was overheated. There were just so many people surrounding me, BIG PEOPLE even, and it was hard for me to breathe in there. I was losing oxygen. It was a scary moment. I was shaking, and I thought to myself of how I wish Mark was there ): I told Ryan to stay in the crowd so he could enjoy the show. I was so sad. I felt like damn, I should just go home afterwards. I felt horrible. Just feeling like that sorta killed my day already.
After an hour, I decided to back in through the gates, but I decided to stay in the back and not bother going to the front. I didn't wanna get overheated again or have people start pushing around once Paramore came out to play. I decided to sit some more because I found it hard to stand for a long time. My legs would start shaking if I did. Once Paramore came out was when I got closer in with the crowd. Kristen Stewert (who I'm sure you all know plays Bella in the upcoming movie Twilight) and some other chick who I forget her name was (yeah, that's how much I pay attention) introduced Paramore. They played Decode, Pressure, That's What You Get, & Misery Business. Afterwards, us with the yellow wristbands lined up for the meet&greet. It literally lasted a second long. Security would constantly bug us to quickly keep moving on forward, and we couldn't get anything personalized. I even brought the vinyl, but they couldn't signed it. I said HI to the band, and walked away. Some girls were crazy, coming out screaming and jumping and shrieking because they were so happy to meet Paramore. HAHAHA. Maybe it's because I've seen Paramore so much this year that it doesn't surprise me THAT much, but it was nice seeing them personally.
I couldn't find Ryan since he doesn't have a cell phone, but he finally reached me through a payphone as I was walking to my car. I figured that he'd probably be at my car since we both know where it's at. I was feeling a lot better so we decided to stay in line for Jimmy Kimmel. We waited over 2 hours, from 5:30-7:50 almost, to get in. JEEZ! Last time we saw Paramore in April, we didn't have to wait that long. I gotta admit, I had a much better time seeing them in April. This crowd was RIDICULOUS. They were rude and disgusting. People constantly shoving me to the point where I couldn't even lift my arms, and I started pushing everyone back telling them to GET THE FUCK OFF ME. I decided to get myself out of the crowd & stay by the back. The view was better because while in the crowd, my neck was hurting because I couldn't see. Ryan & I left during their last song (Let The Flames Begin), and we headed back to the valley. Ate dinner with friends at Dennys, and I headed home. I was toooooo tired.
Once I got home, I watched Paramore on Jimmy Kimmel on ABC and knocked out.
PICTURES FROM THE LOST SHOW / JIMMY KIMMEL--from my Myspace
SO HERE I AM! Tired, bored, hungry, the usual. But glad that I'm finally home & resting. My belly is getting bigger; I'm starting to see stretchmarks..wahhh! Anyways, I gotta study all day. I have a test to submit by tomorrow. Have a good day everyone!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Thursday morning I woke up early around 8am to get everything ready for the trip. Man, I was sleepy. I made Mark wake up so I could finally gather up all the bathroom stuff that we'd need. By 10 we had everything ready, but we had to go run a few errands, and by 11am, I asked Mark, "Did you bring your wallet?" He's like, "Oh shit..no." "Are you lying?" "No, I really don't have my wallet." So we had to drive back from Carson for him to retrieve his wallet. ahhhhhhhhhh. Then by 11:20ish we finally hit the freeway. Check-in at the Luxor was at 3pm, and I was thinking we'd get there around 4. The drive was wearing me out since I woke up so early, and the air was so dry it was making it hard for me to breathe (it hurts when it's dry, if you know what I mean). So I fell asleep. Next thing I knew, we were already passed Barstow, and I asked Mark, "How long was I asleep for?" He told me, "20 minutes." WTF? Apparently he was driving somewhere over 100mph, so we ended up reaching Vegas at like 2:30. That was fast. And when we got to the Luxor, we had to carry all our luggages and it started hurting my back so I felt bad for Mark having to carry 5 bags on him. We totally forgot that we could've used valet parking so we were killing ourselves. Once we walked in the hotel, I had to cover my face with my sweater due to all the second hand smoke. I looked like a little girl. Whatever. I have to do whatever it takes to protect myself! Our room was on the 21st floor and ended up being on the complete opposite side of the elevator. AHHHHHHHH! I was already thinking, damn, this isn't going to be fun. When we opened our room, there were 2 full size beds. Not 1 king size bed like we reserved. I WAS LIKE WTF! Whatever. I didn't even wanna both complaining. Mark didn't care because the room was bigger anyway. Another thing that annoyed me: no wireless internet. I had to connect the ethernet cable to my laptop which wasn't even LONG so I had to drag a table in front of the TV, and stretch the cable out to connect. There wasn't an outlet nearby so I had to stretch my laptop charger across the tv and closet. Talk about ghetto. Another thing: NO REMOTE. What kinda fucking hotel room doesn't have a remote for their tv?! So Mark & I had to walk up to the tv and manually change the volume or channel. Yeah, we were pretty lazy to complain. I can complain and talk, but I didn't wanna have someone come up to our room. I was already too tired. Sigh. So for one thing, NO, I wouldn't wanna stay at the Luxor ever again, but we did have a nice view.
We went to the Carnival World Buffet at the Rio. It's a really popular buffet; many people love going there. When you walk in, you have to pay at this little computer screen where you can scan your credit card or place cash in. Imagine if it was a long line..it woud lag. But anyways, it was a Thursday night so there was no one in line (thankfully). I walked in and was in SHOCK by all the different and many kinds of foods all over the place. That place is big. I got everything I wanted on my plate(s), but once I tried the food, it didn't WOW me. Something was too salty or too plain or the flavor just wasn't right. There is a bunch of dessert to choose from as well; they even have a little gelato bar. Mark tried the mint chocolate chip..GROSS. I LOVE mint chocolate chip, but their version gave me the nastiest after taste. I thought I was gonna barf. That's how bad it was. Too strong. But their chocolate flavor was good; chocolate cake, yuck. Apple pie, good. Overall I give this place a 6/10. It's sad to say, but I even like Hometown Buffet better.
After dinner, we went to the Paris hotel and went up to the top of the Eiffel Tower. The view was pretty. We even got to see the Bellagio water show while we were there. It was nice. After that, I was pretty worn out. It was only 8pm, but being me, I can't be out for too long. So we went back to our hotel and called it a night. Mark was pretty tired, I'm sure; he only had like 4 hours of sleep before we left for Vegas.
PICTURES FROM THE PARIS HOTEL--from my Myspace.
Friday, November 14, 2008
It was already 10am and I had been up for an hour. I kept bugging Mark, WAKE UP WAKE UP! BABY IS HUNGRY!! DON'T KILL YOUR BABY! I was freakinnnnnnnnnn hungry! I didn't wanna order room service..that stuff is WAY too expensive. So finally by 12 he had his ass out of bed & got ready to go eat some brunch. We had IHOP (: I love that place. I always love their food. MMMmmm breakfast with pancakes. I love it. After breakfast, we headed to Caesar's Palace and parked our car. We decided to walk around the more southern part of the strip. We walked to the Wynn hotel to see what it was like inside. It's so fancy. And so pretty! Have you guys ever heard of the VERTU cell phone? Well the Wynn has an official Vertu shop, and these cell phones go for A LOT. A LOT A LOT. If you think $800 is a lot being spent on iPhones, shit, try $300,000!! LIKE WTF, RIGHT?! Here, watch this video:
Anyways, after we walked around the boutiques, we headed to the Ferrari/Maserati showrooms. Those cars are nice! Yeah, now if I wanted to spend $300,000 on something, it would at least be one of those cars. SHEESH! But yeah, this is the only authorized Ferrari dealership in Nevada. Nice stuff. He also had a Nissan GT-R..the Skyline! That thing is a beast.
After the Wynn, we decided to head back to our car, we walked around the mall then headed back to the car. I was dehydrated. Being pregnant gets in the way of a lot of things. I get too exhausted :( I told Mark that I really had a hard time walking! And I was wearing comfortable slippers & everything. It's just hard. A lot of walking tires me out. So we headed back to the hotel, took a short nap, and before I knew it, we had to go head out for some dinner & to the Blue Man Group show.
The Blue Man Group was soooooo fun! We had poncho seats, so we were in the 4th row. It's really fun being much close compared to the back. The back seemed bored, and everyone in the front rows were really interactive. It's funny watching their facial expressions too. Mark had a really good time; he said it was pretty much one of his favorite shows that he's seen. It was at 10pm, so when we got there, I had a HUGE headache (from being exhausted), but I enjoyed the show regardless. Good performance.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I woke up around 6:30am realizing that Mark wasn't in the room. He went to play black jack..I KNEW IT! I had a feeling he'd come back soon, which he did, 10 minutes later. He lost $100 but he said he'd go back down. Yeah, whatever. Liar. I knew he was too tired because the next thing I know, he was snoring next to me. Mmm hmm. 3 hours later I woke up & had to prepare to pack all our stuff. We had to check-out by 11am, so poor Markie had to wake up after only a few hours of sleep. Once we checked out, I didn't know where to go! I had already eaten because I couldn't wait for him to wake up so I ordered that expensive room service crap. $16+ for just 2 pieces of ham, 2 toast, scrambled eggs, and hash browns. IHOP is wayy better. lol. But whatever, I couldn't let myself starve, right? Baby needs to eat! But yeah, we headed to the outlets so see what we could find. I found it sad how I couldn't shop for anything. Nothing fits anymore. There's no point in me buying shirts because my belly's popping. And I don't really care for pants because I was on my diet & still hadn't reached my goal. DAMNIT! But Mark went shopping at Zoo York & Ed Hardy/Christian Audigier. He got himself some nice clothes. I was sad. I couldn't get anything. After the outlets, we decided to rest in the car. Aj, Mark S., and Don weren't gonna leave until around 2pm, so we had to wait for them to get the Vegas because without Aj, we can't check into a hotel. I told Mark that WE should've reserved the hotel ourselves, damnit. I let Mark take a nap in the car outside the outlets, but then I got hungry so I wanted some Jollibee. After dinner, we called the guys to see where they were at. Mark & I were sitting in the Best Buy parking lot..waiting. Due to the fires in SoCal, there was traffic, so the guys didn't get to Vegas until around 8. We finally checked into our hotel room at the Tropicana. Wooooo ghetto hotel! It wreaked of cigarette smoke, but we had a little patio so the guys could go out & not pollute my baby. We had dinner at the ChinChin restaurant over at New York New York, and we had some ice cream. After that, I knew the guys wanted to go out and have some fun so we went back to the hotel, and I got myself ready for bed. They all went out to the MGM to go gamble.
I was having a hard time falling asleep. The bed wasn't comfortable, and since we were on the same level as the casino, I could smell the smoke. I was soooooooo aggravated, I wanted to cry. I had to cover my face with one of Mark's clean tshirts so avoid the smell while being able to breathe at the same time. I ended up getting a headache, and I had the feeling that I was going to get sick. It just wasn't a good sleep for me. I just wanted to go home already. I'm pregnant, not even 21, with nothing to do in Vegas. Mark & the guys finally got back around 5:30am, and they all knocked out.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
In the morning I woke up first, like always. I took my shower first since I knew the guys were all gonna take turns taking a shower before check-out time. Mark S. woke up 2nd, and then everyone else. Aj was talking in his sleep, and it was cracking me up. My Markie woke up with a hangover. Poor thing. Everyone told him to yack. I guess he did but it wasn't good enough. They wanted to eat at the World Buffet again. This time there was a line so it took a while to get seated -_- Sooooooo many people. I ate a few things, but not too much. It's so expensive, but if you can handle buffets then it's good for you. Mark was still feeling sick, and all he ate was 3/4 of a taco. He paid $25 for 3/4 of a taco and some orange juice. LOL. Poor guy. He could've gotten that at a Taco Bell. After brunch, we headed to the outlets again. Boring for me because like I said, I couldn't get anything.
Then finalllllllllllllllllly. FINALLY. We headed for home!!! We stopped by an In N Out around Barstow for some dinner and finally we reached home at around 10. I LOVE HOME!
Yesterday, Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I left around noon to go pick Ryan up in the valley. I got there, ordered me some take out at Mission Burrito (which is my family's favorite Mexican food restaurant), and we headed for Hollywood. We got there at 2pm, and the crowd wasn't as bad as a I thought. On the news the night before, people were saying how there were crowds CAMPING outside of Hot Topic. Like wtf? But I didn't think it would be so crowded, and it wasn't..just yet. Ryan & I showed our wristbands and stood/sat in the middle. We were pretttttttttttty damn close. SO close to the stage. I ate the rest of my food, and about 10 minutes later (around 3pm), I started feeling nauseous. It was strange. I felt like I needed to throw up, and that my head was spinning. I started getting dizzy, and I could barely talk, so I rushed out of the crowd to sit outside. I caught my breath. I wanted to lie down so bad. I was sweating, DRASTICALLY, all over my body. It was insane. I've never felt this way before ever since I've been pregnant. I was overheated. There were just so many people surrounding me, BIG PEOPLE even, and it was hard for me to breathe in there. I was losing oxygen. It was a scary moment. I was shaking, and I thought to myself of how I wish Mark was there ): I told Ryan to stay in the crowd so he could enjoy the show. I was so sad. I felt like damn, I should just go home afterwards. I felt horrible. Just feeling like that sorta killed my day already.
After an hour, I decided to back in through the gates, but I decided to stay in the back and not bother going to the front. I didn't wanna get overheated again or have people start pushing around once Paramore came out to play. I decided to sit some more because I found it hard to stand for a long time. My legs would start shaking if I did. Once Paramore came out was when I got closer in with the crowd. Kristen Stewert (who I'm sure you all know plays Bella in the upcoming movie Twilight) and some other chick who I forget her name was (yeah, that's how much I pay attention) introduced Paramore. They played Decode, Pressure, That's What You Get, & Misery Business. Afterwards, us with the yellow wristbands lined up for the meet&greet. It literally lasted a second long. Security would constantly bug us to quickly keep moving on forward, and we couldn't get anything personalized. I even brought the vinyl, but they couldn't signed it. I said HI to the band, and walked away. Some girls were crazy, coming out screaming and jumping and shrieking because they were so happy to meet Paramore. HAHAHA. Maybe it's because I've seen Paramore so much this year that it doesn't surprise me THAT much, but it was nice seeing them personally.
I couldn't find Ryan since he doesn't have a cell phone, but he finally reached me through a payphone as I was walking to my car. I figured that he'd probably be at my car since we both know where it's at. I was feeling a lot better so we decided to stay in line for Jimmy Kimmel. We waited over 2 hours, from 5:30-7:50 almost, to get in. JEEZ! Last time we saw Paramore in April, we didn't have to wait that long. I gotta admit, I had a much better time seeing them in April. This crowd was RIDICULOUS. They were rude and disgusting. People constantly shoving me to the point where I couldn't even lift my arms, and I started pushing everyone back telling them to GET THE FUCK OFF ME. I decided to get myself out of the crowd & stay by the back. The view was better because while in the crowd, my neck was hurting because I couldn't see. Ryan & I left during their last song (Let The Flames Begin), and we headed back to the valley. Ate dinner with friends at Dennys, and I headed home. I was toooooo tired.
Once I got home, I watched Paramore on Jimmy Kimmel on ABC and knocked out.
PICTURES FROM THE LOST SHOW / JIMMY KIMMEL--from my Myspace
SO HERE I AM! Tired, bored, hungry, the usual. But glad that I'm finally home & resting. My belly is getting bigger; I'm starting to see stretchmarks..wahhh! Anyways, I gotta study all day. I have a test to submit by tomorrow. Have a good day everyone!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
The "talk."
So it's already 12:20am, but just about over an hour ago, Mark & I had a deep conversation with his mom. She basically gave us the typical "motherly" advice she would give us as a couple. Of course I was too nervous to approach her, but I knew everything would turn out okay. She was basically telling us how hard it is to raise a kid this early in life (which we are already aware of), and that she just wants us to be responsible adults. She wants us to not argue as much, and for Mark to control his temper (AHAHAHA, see Babe). But like Mark told her, we already know what our responsibilities are, what our priorities are, and what we have to do to go further in life. We know that now that we're about to have our first baby, our once so smooth road will be a little bit rough. I'm not scared; I'm determined. I know that Mark & I will raise an amazing child. Mark & I have been together for almost 3 years, and even though it may not seem long, we love each other, A LOT, and we definitely care about each other. Mark was raised without a father, I was raised without a mother. We would never allow our baby to live the life we lived. That's why I started to cry during our conversation with his mom. I just continue to think about how I'm really having a baby, and I'm thankful that it's with someone I love SO much, and two families who will love the baby to the fullest. Mark's mom also kept telling Mark to be a fighter especially since she IS one. She raised Mark on her own, and I know Mark loves his mom for all the hard work and efford she put into it. This is why Mark is going to be the greatest dad, I already know it. As for me, I would never be anything close to what my mother is. My baby is gonna have a good life, no matter what hardships I go through; I don't have a life besides staying home, studying, cleaning. I don't have any obsessions with going out late at night; I'll be totally dedicated to raising my child. Plus his aunts are actually excited; his aunt's best friend said the only thing she's concerned about is being called "Grandma" because she doesn't wanna sound old. Hahaha. I think both our families are excited. And Mark told his mom, "You're gonna be a grandma." And she said, "I know.." with a smile. Yeah, I saw that smile! I know everyone's excited, shoot. What was once scary to me last week is now the complete opposite. Now I'm really anticipating what's gonna happen 6 months from now. I still can't believe it. I'm going to have my own family.
Well, I gotta catch up on some sleep. We'll be leaving for Vegas around 10am. Goodnight everyone!
Well, I gotta catch up on some sleep. We'll be leaving for Vegas around 10am. Goodnight everyone!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Late Night Laundry.
Hello everyone. It's about 11:30pm, and I'm sitting on my bed folding all our laundry. I have to get this completed before we pack for Vegas. My bum is still sore.
Thankfully, little fetus decided to cooperate with me today. I didn't really feel nauseous at all today. Mark & I went to the WIC Center in Torrance to apply. No one was there (thankfully) so I got my application filled out & completed in a real short amount of time. That was easier than I thought. I already got my checks, and ID card. Woo! I mean, it's not much, but it's SOMETHING. Anything that'll save us money would be a big help. Another good reason why we live in California. After WIC, we had lunch at Souplantation, my favorite place! I miss that place so much! I haven't been craving it for the past 2 weeks, but today I was just desperate for their food. It was so yummy (: Good stuff. I was happy. After lunch, we stopped by Jamba Juice. I think it's the pregnant kick-it spot, no joke. I saw 4 other pregnant women waiting in line for their smoothies. Hmm, Jamba Juice must be a big crave. I already drank it twice this week, haha. We ended up rearranging our room a little bit. A little bit of changing around /cleaning has done this room some good! We have more space, and I feel a bit better. Well, Mark had to do most of the lifting since I'm pretty useless with my condition; all I could do was dust. Haha.
My sister finally called me today saying, "Do you have something to tell me?" I was like, "SHUT UP, I already know Mama told you." She laughed. That hoe. Haha. She's excited to plan the baby shower already, crazy girl. Probably more excited than me! The two things I'm desperate for right now is my first prenatal screening on Dec. 5th & finally finding out the gender in January. I have no patience, ahhhhhhh.
Mark had a conversation with his mother last night. Apparently, she wants us to give our baby Mark's maiden name "Lunggapin" aka his mom's last name. I mean, I have no problem letting him/her have that last name, but the baby won't even sound related to me OR Mark. Haha. Foreal though! Here's Charleene Aldaya & Mark Chantarawong with a baby named "[insert baby's first name] Lunggapin". I told myself that maybe I can just squeeze "Aldaya" in there somewhere. The baby's gonna have oneeeeee long name. For a while now, Mark's been planning to change his last name to Lunggapin since he claims the name "Chantarawong" has done him no good. Hopefully he can take that to court soon! Make the baby OUR baby! Haha. (:
So I found out Paramore's also performing for the Jimmy Kimmel Show AFTER their show/meet & greet at Hot Topic on the 18th. So being the psycho that I am, I sought after their tickets on Jimmy Kimmel's site, and reserved 2 tickets. They're free, shit, I'll take 'em! Man, it's gonna be such a fun night. It will definitely be one of the best nights of this year. I'm sooo excited. Even though we won't be in line early enough to get close to the stage for the 2nd performance, it doesn't matter! I'll just be happy to have an entire night full of Paramore (:
Well, gotta get back to laundry & a little bit more cleaning up for the room, then sleepy time for me. I'm poooooped! It was a good day. Hopefully my nausea will lessen from now on (I hope I'm not jinxing it right now). G'night!
Thankfully, little fetus decided to cooperate with me today. I didn't really feel nauseous at all today. Mark & I went to the WIC Center in Torrance to apply. No one was there (thankfully) so I got my application filled out & completed in a real short amount of time. That was easier than I thought. I already got my checks, and ID card. Woo! I mean, it's not much, but it's SOMETHING. Anything that'll save us money would be a big help. Another good reason why we live in California. After WIC, we had lunch at Souplantation, my favorite place! I miss that place so much! I haven't been craving it for the past 2 weeks, but today I was just desperate for their food. It was so yummy (: Good stuff. I was happy. After lunch, we stopped by Jamba Juice. I think it's the pregnant kick-it spot, no joke. I saw 4 other pregnant women waiting in line for their smoothies. Hmm, Jamba Juice must be a big crave. I already drank it twice this week, haha. We ended up rearranging our room a little bit. A little bit of changing around /cleaning has done this room some good! We have more space, and I feel a bit better. Well, Mark had to do most of the lifting since I'm pretty useless with my condition; all I could do was dust. Haha.
My sister finally called me today saying, "Do you have something to tell me?" I was like, "SHUT UP, I already know Mama told you." She laughed. That hoe. Haha. She's excited to plan the baby shower already, crazy girl. Probably more excited than me! The two things I'm desperate for right now is my first prenatal screening on Dec. 5th & finally finding out the gender in January. I have no patience, ahhhhhhh.
Mark had a conversation with his mother last night. Apparently, she wants us to give our baby Mark's maiden name "Lunggapin" aka his mom's last name. I mean, I have no problem letting him/her have that last name, but the baby won't even sound related to me OR Mark. Haha. Foreal though! Here's Charleene Aldaya & Mark Chantarawong with a baby named "[insert baby's first name] Lunggapin". I told myself that maybe I can just squeeze "Aldaya" in there somewhere. The baby's gonna have oneeeeee long name. For a while now, Mark's been planning to change his last name to Lunggapin since he claims the name "Chantarawong" has done him no good. Hopefully he can take that to court soon! Make the baby OUR baby! Haha. (:
So I found out Paramore's also performing for the Jimmy Kimmel Show AFTER their show/meet & greet at Hot Topic on the 18th. So being the psycho that I am, I sought after their tickets on Jimmy Kimmel's site, and reserved 2 tickets. They're free, shit, I'll take 'em! Man, it's gonna be such a fun night. It will definitely be one of the best nights of this year. I'm sooo excited. Even though we won't be in line early enough to get close to the stage for the 2nd performance, it doesn't matter! I'll just be happy to have an entire night full of Paramore (:
Well, gotta get back to laundry & a little bit more cleaning up for the room, then sleepy time for me. I'm poooooped! It was a good day. Hopefully my nausea will lessen from now on (I hope I'm not jinxing it right now). G'night!
Monday, November 10, 2008
The holidays are coming up.
I love this feeling. The weather changes, and when it's cold like this, that's when I know my favorite season is coming up. Thanksgiving & Christmas are definitely my favorites. I love that certain scent and the decorations. It always makes me feel all funny inside. Like it's the season to be happy! And I'm definitely happy this year; even with no gifts of any sort, I'm fine because I have this little baby growing inside of me.
Anyways, I've been soooooooooo lazy. I was trying to write a blog yesterday, but I was so dizzy and nauseous. Then this morning I tried to blog as well, but I felt too sick. It's just RIDICULOUS! I can't feel normal. Everyday I wake up and eat, and then I feel sooo exhausted afterwards. Then I get super hungry & when I eat for lunch, I get sleepy and lazy again. Then I get nauseous all over again. I don't know. It's just insane. Too much for me to handle.
Yesterday morning I sorta cleaned up the room now that JouJou has left us some more space. We're planning to just completely rearrange the room to make a huge amount of space because I know that if we just push most of the furniture to one side, it leaves practically half the room empty. That's a good thing. I hope we do it soon. I miss when we had like nothing in our room & we had soooooooo much free space. Now we gotta figure out where to put our mini fridge, mini pantry, tv, desk, bed, night stands. Ah. So much crap in here.
In the afternoon, Jeanillie & Joe decided to come kick it for a while. We just talked & laughed over stupid things like this one Filipino folklore book full of superstitions. It's called "Don't Take a Bath on a Friday." It's really pathetic, but it's so funny in it's own Filipino way. Idk. Filipinos, ah. The things they make up.
My biological mother (who lives in the Philippines, if you didn't know) called me as well. I told her, "You should come back soon because you're expecting a grandchild." She was like, "What? Who?" I told her, "ME!" Now she's super excited. She was like, "Can I keep it?" UH NO. Crazy woman. She said she'll be the babysitter, which is a really good thing. My mom's all happy for us. I hope she comes back soon to help us out; at least contribute SOMETHING, Mother. Jesus.
After Jeanillie & Joe headed out, Mark & I went to go catch some dinner @ La Salsa, then we headed to Rowland Heights because Vicky was nice enough to give me a Paramore vinyl (which I want to have the band sign when I see them on the 18th). Thanks! Oh, and Pudge is very VERY cute. I wish I could seriously switch him with Happy ahahaha. I'm so mean to Happy, but that's because he's an ass. I think everyone (who comes over) knows how much of an ass he is (: After that, Mark & I had to rush to his basketball game in Anaheim by 8pm. We got there right on time, and the team played pretty well! I sat with Melissa & Leslie. I broke the news to Melissa, and it felt so good to share my feelings with someone who's going through what I'm going through (but she's already 6 months pregnant..ahhhh, so cute I can't wait 'til her little Evan is born!) Evan and our baby are going to be playmates (of course because they're related as well haha). The guys won both games, and I was relieved when the games were over because I was sooooooo exhausted; I just wanted to be home in my bed, dead asleep. Also, my bum hurts now because sitting on those bleachers for 2 hours was not comfortable. Yeah, I'm so sore right now.
When I got home, I studied and finished my Stage 2 test. I just want to get it done before our trip to Vegas this week. We'll be leaving Thursday morning, I believe, and we have to check in at 3pm. We're staying at the Luxor (: I love the whole setting of that place because Egypt is definitely one place I have to visit before I die. Anyways, yeah, I haven't been back to the Luxor in a while, and hotels rates are really good in Vegas right now. I just wanna stay somewhere near the strip so I don't have to walk too far. We're also planning to see a show, possibly the Blue Man Group. I'm excited. Time to go away. I was really looking forward to San Francisco, but that's gonna cost a lot more. Maybe next time. I'm excited though. I'm just kinda afraid how the car ride will be because nowadays I easily get nauseous. AND I get hungry like every half hour. I'm gonna be a nuisance, begging to stop for a bathroom break or for more food. Ah, we'll see.
Today we had lunch with CHOLO :] I was REALLY sick today; I couldn't help it; I really wanted to barf. I really hate this feeling of always being sick everyday. It's so hard to handle, but I know it's what I gotta bear through because it's all for my little one. Tomorrow, I'm planning on applying at the WIC center in Torrance so I can finally get that over with. Well, I gotta finish up my laundry. Goodnight!
Anyways, I've been soooooooooo lazy. I was trying to write a blog yesterday, but I was so dizzy and nauseous. Then this morning I tried to blog as well, but I felt too sick. It's just RIDICULOUS! I can't feel normal. Everyday I wake up and eat, and then I feel sooo exhausted afterwards. Then I get super hungry & when I eat for lunch, I get sleepy and lazy again. Then I get nauseous all over again. I don't know. It's just insane. Too much for me to handle.
Yesterday morning I sorta cleaned up the room now that JouJou has left us some more space. We're planning to just completely rearrange the room to make a huge amount of space because I know that if we just push most of the furniture to one side, it leaves practically half the room empty. That's a good thing. I hope we do it soon. I miss when we had like nothing in our room & we had soooooooo much free space. Now we gotta figure out where to put our mini fridge, mini pantry, tv, desk, bed, night stands. Ah. So much crap in here.
In the afternoon, Jeanillie & Joe decided to come kick it for a while. We just talked & laughed over stupid things like this one Filipino folklore book full of superstitions. It's called "Don't Take a Bath on a Friday." It's really pathetic, but it's so funny in it's own Filipino way. Idk. Filipinos, ah. The things they make up.
My biological mother (who lives in the Philippines, if you didn't know) called me as well. I told her, "You should come back soon because you're expecting a grandchild." She was like, "What? Who?" I told her, "ME!" Now she's super excited. She was like, "Can I keep it?" UH NO. Crazy woman. She said she'll be the babysitter, which is a really good thing. My mom's all happy for us. I hope she comes back soon to help us out; at least contribute SOMETHING, Mother. Jesus.
After Jeanillie & Joe headed out, Mark & I went to go catch some dinner @ La Salsa, then we headed to Rowland Heights because Vicky was nice enough to give me a Paramore vinyl (which I want to have the band sign when I see them on the 18th). Thanks! Oh, and Pudge is very VERY cute. I wish I could seriously switch him with Happy ahahaha. I'm so mean to Happy, but that's because he's an ass. I think everyone (who comes over) knows how much of an ass he is (: After that, Mark & I had to rush to his basketball game in Anaheim by 8pm. We got there right on time, and the team played pretty well! I sat with Melissa & Leslie. I broke the news to Melissa, and it felt so good to share my feelings with someone who's going through what I'm going through (but she's already 6 months pregnant..ahhhh, so cute I can't wait 'til her little Evan is born!) Evan and our baby are going to be playmates (of course because they're related as well haha). The guys won both games, and I was relieved when the games were over because I was sooooooo exhausted; I just wanted to be home in my bed, dead asleep. Also, my bum hurts now because sitting on those bleachers for 2 hours was not comfortable. Yeah, I'm so sore right now.
When I got home, I studied and finished my Stage 2 test. I just want to get it done before our trip to Vegas this week. We'll be leaving Thursday morning, I believe, and we have to check in at 3pm. We're staying at the Luxor (: I love the whole setting of that place because Egypt is definitely one place I have to visit before I die. Anyways, yeah, I haven't been back to the Luxor in a while, and hotels rates are really good in Vegas right now. I just wanna stay somewhere near the strip so I don't have to walk too far. We're also planning to see a show, possibly the Blue Man Group. I'm excited. Time to go away. I was really looking forward to San Francisco, but that's gonna cost a lot more. Maybe next time. I'm excited though. I'm just kinda afraid how the car ride will be because nowadays I easily get nauseous. AND I get hungry like every half hour. I'm gonna be a nuisance, begging to stop for a bathroom break or for more food. Ah, we'll see.
Today we had lunch with CHOLO :] I was REALLY sick today; I couldn't help it; I really wanted to barf. I really hate this feeling of always being sick everyday. It's so hard to handle, but I know it's what I gotta bear through because it's all for my little one. Tomorrow, I'm planning on applying at the WIC center in Torrance so I can finally get that over with. Well, I gotta finish up my laundry. Goodnight!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Hot Topic Paramore Lost Show
So I'm crazy. All last minute, I decided to bust a mission and drive all the way to the valley to pick up Ryan and rush to Northridge mall to buy the wristbands for the Hot Topic Paramore Lost Show in Hollywood. When we got to the store, they still had a good amount of t-shirts left; I quickly grabbed one for me and one for Ryan. Once we got in line to pay, the cashier saw what we were about to purchase and told his coworker to pull out the rest of the shirts. I was wondering why until he told us, "Man, there have fights over these wristbands! After you guys, there's only 1 more left." I was like dannnnnnnnnnnnnng! Perfect timing or what!! I had to bear through traffic on most of the 405, but I didn't give a damn because I got my wristband, and that's what makes me happy! I finally get to meet Paramore! Cameras aren't allowed though, that's one thing that sucks ): But I get to see them again, and finally get to tell them how much I appreciate their good music & talent. And it'll be my unborn baby's first concert! Haha. It would be a Paramore show (:
We stopped by the Children's Place to buy the gift for the baby shower. I bought these cute pajamas, and they were so cute I wish I bought it for myself [but I don't even know the gender yet]. Then we stopped by Journeyz Kids to visit my friend Ashley who I haven't seen in YEARS. Then afterwards we stopped by Old Navy & I bought myself a couple of leggings [because I hate wearing jeans now..I think I mentioned that somewhere].
By 3:15pm I was driving back home to Torrance, and I was stuck in traffic for a good hour. I had to pee really bad, and I was soooooo exhausted. I barely walked around the mall, but I was ready to pass out. That's how tired I get nowadays. I prepared the gift once I got home, and we headed out to Aj's house. The house was packed with people! I had some pancit, beef steak, and lumpia, and I thought I was able to eat more, but I couldn't. Then I started feeling nauseous again. That was me pretty much the whole time at the party. David, Mark S, and Don were there as well. It's always fun chatting with the guys; they're such guys, and I'm so used to always being the only girl nowadays. Haha. Well now I'm home, and I believe Don & Aj are about to stop by lol. I don't know; these guys are usually inseparable.
I'm pretty pooped, but I'm hungry again (: I'm going to find me some food. Munch, munch, munch x]
She knows.
So Mark decided to tell me at 5am this morning that he told his mother about the news. 5am. Not a good time to wake me up. I felt my stomach hurting, and I wanted to throw up all over his face. YEP. No really, I get so nauseous especially when I haven't eaten and I need a lot of rest. Anyways, she got home from work around 3:15am, according to Mark, and he went downstairs to go eat (like always, he eats late) and he told her, "I'm not gonna lie to to you; the reason I took Calee to the doctor is because she's pregnant." Her response?
"I knew it!"
Basically, she's disappointed. She kept asking him, "Why didn't you guys use protection? blahblahblahblahblah" All the stuff you'd hear from a typical parent. And then she kept saying, "You guys aren't ready; you both don't even have jobs." Not entirely true. I already predicted she would say that because none of our family really "know-know", you know? lol. Okay, going on, she also told him, "Calee's not even going to school right now" and Mark told her, "Yes she is; she's studying for her dog training." She said, "How do you know she won't quit that?" Oh, how did I predict she was gonna say that also? I pretty much know the way she thinks, especially of me. Then she kept telling Mark, "You guys better not argue a lot now that you two are having a baby and this and that and be responsible and blahblahblahblah." I don't really know what she said because I can't remember a lot of the things Mark told [it was too early & I was practically half asleep]. He just told her, "Don't worry. Calee knows her responsibilities now. I know mine. And don't worry about our financial issues." Then Mark told me she cried. I asked, "Was that a happy or sad cry?" And he said, "I don't know." Hmm, that must mean something if you can't tell which from which, lol. Mark said that she wants to have a talk with us both. I wanna hide, haha. No, no, I'll face her, of course. It's just she always thinks of me as something I'm not because all she sees me do is stay in my room all day. That's because I'm so scared of her. Little does she know much of a clean freak I am, how organized I can be, how much I help Mark with his homework, how much I wanna help everyone out; I'm not a bad person, and I hope she will realize that one day. My parents know how hard I try. I hope she'll see that in me now that I'm gonna be a mother. When this baby comes out, she's gonna be all excited & treat our baby like a human Happy (as if Happy isn't human-like enough). One good thing about all this is that Mark & I aren't homeless (:
Last night, Mark & I got JouJou ready in his aunt's van to go drop her off at Ryan's house in the valley. We left around 7:20pm & I swear we didn't get there 'til like 9. Traffic is sooooo horrible on the 405, especially on a Friday night. We expected it, of course, but I didn't wanna get to Ryan's house so late & I was starving like crazy and I wanted Mission Burrito (b/c I was craving it like crazy). Too bad by the time we reach the valley, the place would've closed, so we went to Daglas instead. JP & Ryan met up with us there. I told them, "I HAVE TO EAT FIRST I'M FREAKIN' STARVING." Yup. I need to eat eat eat. It was fun hanging out with my old confirmation leader crew. I miss those times always bagging on Ryan. I told him, "I see things haven't changed." HAHA. Anyways, after dinner we went to Ryan's house. Lia & Jason met up with us, also Jeanillie, Joe, & Teresa, but only for a short while. We got JouJou set up, and I gave her her little bath house so she was super happy. I'm gonna miss that girl! But I know she'll be in good hands, and if I wanted to go visit her, I know where to go (:
So Paramore is going to perform at Hot Topic at Hollywood/Highland, and in order for me to be a part of this GRAND performance, I need to go to a participating Hot Topic (Brea, Northridge, blahblahblah malls) and buy their exclusive t-shirt to get the wristband. It also guarantees a meet&greet with the band. DOES ANYBODY UNDERSTAND HOW THIS IS IMPORTANT?! I've been wanting to freakin' meet Paramore for how long now, and now that I have a chance, I have to figure out who the hell can go with me! It's on November 18th, a Tuesday, at 4pm. I have to go I have to go. So I think Mark's gonna take me to Brea tomorrow. I have to go! I'll be so sad. Ah, the ups of living in Southern California (:
Today, I gotta go shopping at Babies R Us. Nope, not for me! But for Aj's brother's soon-t0-arrive baby. It's their babyshower today. I love shopping there. I think I've been there like 4 times in the past year just because of how many damn babyshowers I attended, hahaha. But everytime I go in there, I get that feeling where I wish wish wish I had a baby & it would be soo cute & fun to go shopping for all that stuff for myself. AH, now my wish has come true, and I can't wait to get my own registry. Haha. That's like 5 months from now but whatever, I'm freakin' excited.
Have a good day everyone!
"I knew it!"
Basically, she's disappointed. She kept asking him, "Why didn't you guys use protection? blahblahblahblahblah" All the stuff you'd hear from a typical parent. And then she kept saying, "You guys aren't ready; you both don't even have jobs." Not entirely true. I already predicted she would say that because none of our family really "know-know", you know? lol. Okay, going on, she also told him, "Calee's not even going to school right now" and Mark told her, "Yes she is; she's studying for her dog training." She said, "How do you know she won't quit that?" Oh, how did I predict she was gonna say that also? I pretty much know the way she thinks, especially of me. Then she kept telling Mark, "You guys better not argue a lot now that you two are having a baby and this and that and be responsible and blahblahblahblah." I don't really know what she said because I can't remember a lot of the things Mark told [it was too early & I was practically half asleep]. He just told her, "Don't worry. Calee knows her responsibilities now. I know mine. And don't worry about our financial issues." Then Mark told me she cried. I asked, "Was that a happy or sad cry?" And he said, "I don't know." Hmm, that must mean something if you can't tell which from which, lol. Mark said that she wants to have a talk with us both. I wanna hide, haha. No, no, I'll face her, of course. It's just she always thinks of me as something I'm not because all she sees me do is stay in my room all day. That's because I'm so scared of her. Little does she know much of a clean freak I am, how organized I can be, how much I help Mark with his homework, how much I wanna help everyone out; I'm not a bad person, and I hope she will realize that one day. My parents know how hard I try. I hope she'll see that in me now that I'm gonna be a mother. When this baby comes out, she's gonna be all excited & treat our baby like a human Happy (as if Happy isn't human-like enough). One good thing about all this is that Mark & I aren't homeless (:
Last night, Mark & I got JouJou ready in his aunt's van to go drop her off at Ryan's house in the valley. We left around 7:20pm & I swear we didn't get there 'til like 9. Traffic is sooooo horrible on the 405, especially on a Friday night. We expected it, of course, but I didn't wanna get to Ryan's house so late & I was starving like crazy and I wanted Mission Burrito (b/c I was craving it like crazy). Too bad by the time we reach the valley, the place would've closed, so we went to Daglas instead. JP & Ryan met up with us there. I told them, "I HAVE TO EAT FIRST I'M FREAKIN' STARVING." Yup. I need to eat eat eat. It was fun hanging out with my old confirmation leader crew. I miss those times always bagging on Ryan. I told him, "I see things haven't changed." HAHA. Anyways, after dinner we went to Ryan's house. Lia & Jason met up with us, also Jeanillie, Joe, & Teresa, but only for a short while. We got JouJou set up, and I gave her her little bath house so she was super happy. I'm gonna miss that girl! But I know she'll be in good hands, and if I wanted to go visit her, I know where to go (:
So Paramore is going to perform at Hot Topic at Hollywood/Highland, and in order for me to be a part of this GRAND performance, I need to go to a participating Hot Topic (Brea, Northridge, blahblahblah malls) and buy their exclusive t-shirt to get the wristband. It also guarantees a meet&greet with the band. DOES ANYBODY UNDERSTAND HOW THIS IS IMPORTANT?! I've been wanting to freakin' meet Paramore for how long now, and now that I have a chance, I have to figure out who the hell can go with me! It's on November 18th, a Tuesday, at 4pm. I have to go I have to go. So I think Mark's gonna take me to Brea tomorrow. I have to go! I'll be so sad. Ah, the ups of living in Southern California (:
Today, I gotta go shopping at Babies R Us. Nope, not for me! But for Aj's brother's soon-t0-arrive baby. It's their babyshower today. I love shopping there. I think I've been there like 4 times in the past year just because of how many damn babyshowers I attended, hahaha. But everytime I go in there, I get that feeling where I wish wish wish I had a baby & it would be soo cute & fun to go shopping for all that stuff for myself. AH, now my wish has come true, and I can't wait to get my own registry. Haha. That's like 5 months from now but whatever, I'm freakin' excited.
Have a good day everyone!
Friday, November 7, 2008
I love my daddy.
Seriously. This is why I always have those softer moments when I stop & think about how much my father means to me. Although we argue about a lot of stupid shit, like religion and politics and he gets all cranky, I know that he will always be there for me and will always be there to listen. I can't even begin to express how grateful I am to have a father like him. I mean, does you dad call you like 4 times a day just to ask you the simplest things like, "Did you eat yet?" or "Can you look up lyrics for me?" LOL. I know my dad misses me. I know for sure that this new grandchild of his will make him one super happy Lolo :]
I kept calling my dad, seriously today, since 11am. He sucks at picking up his phone. No, but I was guessing he was busy in a meeting at work so I decided to call him later. I called him around 2:15pm, and [already CRYING] the first thing I told him was, "Daddy, I saw the doctor yesterday..I just wanted to tell you that I'm almost 3 months pregnant." His reaction?
"You are?"
Not a "WHAT?!" Not a "ARE YOU STUPID ANAK?!" It was a simple, "You are?" as if we were just having a regular conversation. He told me that he has absolutely nothing against it..that things happen in life, and we all have to accept it. He said that as long as Mark & I know how to take care of ourselves and our baby, that everything should be okay. My dad is a huge support to me, and having him say all those things to me was so relieving. I'm SO happy. I'm tearing up! AHHH. I couldn't ask for a better reaction because honestly, I didn't expect it to be this easy. My dad understands me a lot especially after back in the day when I used to be such a horrible daughter, a "bad ass" I guess you could say, because I never used to listen to what my parents would tell me. He never used to have patience like he does now. I believe it's because as he gets older, and as I get older, he begins to understand why things are the way they are. Look at this world we live in now. Things just happen, and we face our issues head on. I'm just thankful for Mark & my dad. Seriously. The only two men I need in life to keep me strong. And if my baby ends up being a boy, then the THREE men I need in my life :]
Anyways, I bought myself a Pregnancy Journal yesterday after my visit to the doctor. I like it because I get to jot down my first reactions & all the names I wanna sort through and what things I do and don't crave for. Fun stuff.
I just wanna say a bigggggggg THANK YOU to everyone who have congratulated Mark & I and for all the support. We really really need it, ESPECIALLY ME! Especially through my rollercoaster mood swings & times of nausea & pain. And if you guys ever wanna talk to me or chat or whatever, DO IT! I'm bored all day, everyday; I just stay in this bed, eat, eat more, eat some more, and then go pee 100x a day. Then I watch more Heroes. Yup. What a life, right? There's not much else I can do to keep this baby healthy! Haha. Oh, but I would love to go to the mall, but there's nothing I can shop for. I just want leggings and big tshirts and sweaters. I'm too lazy to dress up. Idk. I wanna be one of those steezy moms, but like I said, I'M SO DAMN LAZY!
Tonight, we're going to the valley to drop off JouJou! My friend Ryan decided to take her in his home (THANK YOU!) and it's all freeeee of charge. Lucky him. $500 worth of shit, for free! Haha. I really don't care about the money; I just need her to find a home, and I need the space in our room to prepare for our little one. I think I'll be having dinner with Ryan & JP as well..anyone else wanna join? Go to Daglas ;)
I'm sooo excited! Overall, that is. Well, here's my last entry for today (I hope). Bye bye everyone.
I kept calling my dad, seriously today, since 11am. He sucks at picking up his phone. No, but I was guessing he was busy in a meeting at work so I decided to call him later. I called him around 2:15pm, and [already CRYING] the first thing I told him was, "Daddy, I saw the doctor yesterday..I just wanted to tell you that I'm almost 3 months pregnant." His reaction?
"You are?"
Not a "WHAT?!" Not a "ARE YOU STUPID ANAK?!" It was a simple, "You are?" as if we were just having a regular conversation. He told me that he has absolutely nothing against it..that things happen in life, and we all have to accept it. He said that as long as Mark & I know how to take care of ourselves and our baby, that everything should be okay. My dad is a huge support to me, and having him say all those things to me was so relieving. I'm SO happy. I'm tearing up! AHHH. I couldn't ask for a better reaction because honestly, I didn't expect it to be this easy. My dad understands me a lot especially after back in the day when I used to be such a horrible daughter, a "bad ass" I guess you could say, because I never used to listen to what my parents would tell me. He never used to have patience like he does now. I believe it's because as he gets older, and as I get older, he begins to understand why things are the way they are. Look at this world we live in now. Things just happen, and we face our issues head on. I'm just thankful for Mark & my dad. Seriously. The only two men I need in life to keep me strong. And if my baby ends up being a boy, then the THREE men I need in my life :]
Anyways, I bought myself a Pregnancy Journal yesterday after my visit to the doctor. I like it because I get to jot down my first reactions & all the names I wanna sort through and what things I do and don't crave for. Fun stuff.
I just wanna say a bigggggggg THANK YOU to everyone who have congratulated Mark & I and for all the support. We really really need it, ESPECIALLY ME! Especially through my rollercoaster mood swings & times of nausea & pain. And if you guys ever wanna talk to me or chat or whatever, DO IT! I'm bored all day, everyday; I just stay in this bed, eat, eat more, eat some more, and then go pee 100x a day. Then I watch more Heroes. Yup. What a life, right? There's not much else I can do to keep this baby healthy! Haha. Oh, but I would love to go to the mall, but there's nothing I can shop for. I just want leggings and big tshirts and sweaters. I'm too lazy to dress up. Idk. I wanna be one of those steezy moms, but like I said, I'M SO DAMN LAZY!
Tonight, we're going to the valley to drop off JouJou! My friend Ryan decided to take her in his home (THANK YOU!) and it's all freeeee of charge. Lucky him. $500 worth of shit, for free! Haha. I really don't care about the money; I just need her to find a home, and I need the space in our room to prepare for our little one. I think I'll be having dinner with Ryan & JP as well..anyone else wanna join? Go to Daglas ;)
I'm sooo excited! Overall, that is. Well, here's my last entry for today (I hope). Bye bye everyone.
CaleeMama!
Yes, everyone. It's official. I am pregnant. About 10-11 weeks! It's barely been almost 2 weeks since we first found out yet we've already done so much regarding the baby. I decided to create a separate Blogger account where I could write my thoughts, feelings, and events that go on throughout the entire pregnancy. Mark & I are very excited to see and feel the baby grow.
The following are going to be recaps [from what I can remember] of the past 2 weeks that I haven't been able to share with everyone.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
This was the day that Margaux was put to sleep ): I was already back home in Lomita because I couldn't take the pain back home. Just looking at my other dogs made me soooo sad. So at home I just stayed in bed ALL DAY...I was too stressed / sad / angry, but most of all, I was nauseous. I felt like I couldn't get up to walk or to exercise; I was too lazy to get food.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Mark & I decided to go take Aj to dinner with us in Thai Town. I fell asleep on our way there, and once I got up, I felt incredibly sick. I wanted to throw up, and I lost my appetite. I couldn't decide what to order because I wasn't craving anything on the menu. I just stuck to Mark's suggestion & ordered me some pad thai since I hadn't eaten that in a long time. Once I received my plate, I looked down & I couldn't even stand the way my food looked. It was just so unattractive to me. I was thinking to myself, Wtf is wrong with me? I LOVE PAD THAI. I took about 3 spoonfuls and then stopped. I couldn't eat. I couldn't drink my Thai iced coffee (which I usually love as well). I just kept telling them, "I don't know. I just really don't feel good right now. Maybe I'm just stressed." We went home afterwards & I went to sleep.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Rwang & TN picked me up around 1-2ish. We went to Downtown LA, and throughout that entire day, I felt like SHIT. Walking around down Santee Alley was like hell to me. My nostrils were dry so it hurt when I would breathe. I felt super thirsty, sluggish, hot, and most of all, my head was just pounding. I just didn't feel interested in any of the stores or products because I was so concentrated on how sick I felt. I was so hungry until we finally ended up at a CPK on Sunset Blvd. After our lunch, Jeanillie & Joe finally met up with us. We went to Melrose to check out a couple things, then Jeanillie & Joe were kind enough to drive me home. Mark was telling me, "Arnie & them wanna go eat Korean BBQ" and I kept telling him, "Man, I don't really know if I'm in the mood for Korean BBQ..." We all went anyway. Once I got my food, I took a few bites, but after that I just felt like I couldn't swallow any more of it. It just didn't taste appealing to me whatsoever. And here again, I kept thinking, WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?! I LOVE KOREAN BBQ! Ironically after that, I was craving some Yogurtland, but since there was a lame checkpoint going on in front of the store, we just headed back towards Torrance to grab some McFlurrys & cookies @ McDonald's.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
We had plans to go to the valley to visit Jeanillie & Joe. Once we got off the freeway, we picked up Shehan. I wasn't feeling AS BAD this day, but I was still having a weird appetite. Everyone wanted McD's, but I felt like I couldn't eat as much of it. I ordered some nuggets, but I felt like I was but WASN'T in the mood for it. Idk. It's kinda hard to explain. We went bowling & played with the Wii at Joe's. I had a fun night; I just had no idea what was going on with my body.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
I had no plans on this Sunday so all I did was stay home & plan our trip to San Francisco. We were planning to go on some tours and visit some fun places like Alcatraz & the Winchester Mansion. I was so excited! I basically used up my entire day looking for the perfect hotel & trying to figure our agenda for each day of our stay.
October 27, 2008
Mondays..Mondays are boring for me because that's when Mark goes to school..so I stayed home and was STILL was concentrated on planning our San Francisco trip. We were planning to go on November 13-16 since Mark was going to have a short break from school. I was just TOO excited. I had the hotel sorted out; all I did was wait for Mark to get home so we could book our reservation & purchase all our other tickets. But throughout the day, I felt nauseated. I kept telling Mark on AIM, "Babe, I feel sick again. I don't know what's wrong with me, seriously." He looked at me and was like, "Since I'm about to leave, maybe I should buy you a pregnancy test." And I would constantly be like, "SHUT UP. I'm not freakin' pregnant." So when he left, I just had my web browser on the hotel reservation, ready to be made once he got home. I just went on Myspace & all that crap. Once he got home, he pulled out an E.P.T. box. I was like, "Oh, you really did buy it." I opened the box and said, "Well I gotta pee anyways so might as well take it now." When I was in the bathroom, I kept thinking to myself, This thing is gonna come out negative..I don't know why he even spend money on a more expensive brand... Haha. As soon as I dipped the test in (I know, gross) the circle made a plus sign. In my head, I was like WHAT! WHAT?! WHAT?!?!?!??! I ran out with the test and I was like "BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE" and I was scrambling all over the place to find the E.P.T. box to check what the symbols meant again. HAHA. I was just in shock, thinking ARE YOU SERIOUS?! IS THIS A JOKE?! But it turned out to be true. I went up to Mark and said, "Look Babe, I'm pregnant. I'm really pregant." His reaction was like O_O. No words. Haha. Of course it would come to us as a shock. Nothing was planned (not that I'm saying I regret anything) so it was a huge surprise to us. Throughout the entire night, all I could think of was that there really is a baby inside of me. There really is. Mark kept asking me, "So what do you wanna do Babe? Are you sure you're ready?" For me, I already know what I've gotten myself into. It's not going to easy; it's going to take a lot of patience, care, love, dedication. Janelle was the first person I told. The only person I told that night. Mark just held me the entire time & all I had was this feeling of excitement..that it's really true. Things like these should never be considered a mistake, especially when it's with the one you love. It's a blessing.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
So I went to this place called the Pregnancy Help Center in Torrance. They were REALLY nice and helpful to me. I saw a nurse who took all my vital signs. I had a slight fever, but she said it's due to the rising hormones. I got weighed in, and I wanted to cry. I gained 3 pounds from where I really "stopped" losing weight. AHHHHHHHHHH! Just the thought of losing 30 pounds and having to gain it alllllll back! Scares me, haha. But damn, if this is the only 9 months where I can pig out & eat eat eat, might as take advantage of it, right?! Anyways, I took a pregnancy test through them. They confirmed it for me! I'm preggo! They gave me free prenatal vitamins. I get free prenatal vitamins throughout my entire pregnancy. I'm thankful for tax payers..they allow these clinics to provide these free services for girls who are in the same position as I am. I also took an STD screen. My appointment with the OBGYN was scheduled for the following Wednesday along with a nutrition class. Mark came by after my appointment (bc he had to head out to school), and I told him, "Yup Babe, it's official. You're gonna be a dad." And he sat there and was like, "Wow. You're pregnant." lol. After that I went to Albertsons & picked up everything that looked attractive to me. YUM!!!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Aj came over at night, and Mark decided to tell him the big news. Aj had to guess though, and he was like, "Are you guys getting your own apartment?" NO. "Who does this pertain to?" Mark & I pointed at the each other at the same time. LOL. I was like, "BABE YOURE MAKING IT TOO OBVIOUS." Aj goes, "Is somebody pregnant?!" Haha. I AM! And he congratulated us and gave us a hug. He's excited to be one of the ninongs. He's about to be an uncle next month too! We all decided to go to TGIF and have a little celebration. David and Janelle tagged along as well. Don couldn't make it, and Mark S. was on his way to San Francisco. Next time though, we thought, next time. I was sooooooo hungry. I swear this whole day I was nauseated, but I ate sooo much, and by the time TGIF came along, I was STILL STARVING. I was pissed because the food took forever, and once I got my food, I took like small bites and started eating everyone else's food. HAHAHA. My cravings have gone retarded. Also, wearing jeans doesn't feel comfortable for me anymore. I'm always wearing my leggings now. I feel like my tummy can breathe better. My pants still fit me though..reminds me that at least I'm still weighing less than I did a year ago, and that once this baby comes out, I'll be losing it all and more. Oh yeah, and to end my night, I ate like half of those huge banana splits that they have. YUM! I had to drive cholo to my house because she was drunk. Haha. Everyone was drunk except ME. No complaints though. Haha.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Halloweeeeen! I was so sad that I didn't get me a costume. TN suggested for me to be JUNO! Aww, I really wanted to do that. Haha. Sadly, I felt SICK throughout the entire day. I felt like my stomach was going to explode & I was gonna yack yack yack. Gross. So Halloween was kinda boring for me. It's okay though.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
MY BOTTOM WISDOM TOOTH WAS KILLING ME. For a while now, I've known that my bottom wisdom teeth were impacted, but I never felt the pain until my bottom left one started popping out. OMG. It is painful! It was preventing me from opening my mouth and eating correctly. It hurt when I would brush my teeth or even blow my nose. I was very agitated. First I'm nauseous from this pregnancy and now I'm having this tooth issue?! AHHHHHHhh. It's just hard for me to figure out how to solve the issue since I don't have dental insurance anymore (since my real mother decided to FUCK me over), and my tooth requires oral surgery which would mean I would have to be put under general anesthesia, and that a big NO NO since I'm pregnant. Anyways, Don was having a very BELATED birthday celebration at Paul & Clare's house so we went. I was starving! Haha. This stomach of mine. So I gobbled up on some spaghetti. Mmm, and the cupcakes were yummy. Everyone congratulated me & took a shot for me. Thanks ladies! (: But by 10pm, I was feeling very exhausted so Mark and I decided to go home (although he wreaked of alcohol and smoke, he was able to drive..I can't drive stick-shift!). I was pretty tired. Tired tired me.
Sunday, November 2nd-Tuesday, November 4
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my wisdom tooth was serrrrrriously killing me! I can't even think about the nausea anymore..all I could think about was how painful my tooth was..I couldn't concentrate on anything else. I had to buy Tylenol (it's safe for pregnancy) because the pain is just sooo unbearable. I even cried one night because it's just so stressful..the pain was getting worse, and it was getting hard for me to sleep. I tried putting ice on it, but it was only temporary relief; once I took it off, the pain just came back. I don't like the idea of taking too many Tylenol pills (although my OBGYN says it's safe) so I tried refraining from taking them. On that Monday, Mark & I went to this place in Wilmington to apply for Medi-cal. We waited for about an hour or so, but we finally got it over with. They said it may take up to 5 weeks for me to receive a response, sigh. Too many chicks getting knocked up in LA County, I'm guessing. Haha!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Mark & I went to my nutrition class at the free clinic around 10:30..the nutritionist didn't get there until around 11:50am. AHHHH! We had somewhere to go, and I had scheduled an appointment at 3pm with a dentist that I found through 1-800-DENTIST (haha). The video they showed us cracked me up. "You may crave things that are normally never eaten..such as dirt, clay..." I was like, "WTH? Who craves DIRT?!" Haha. And the lady kept saying "Don't eat this, don't eat that." Easy for me. I don't eat seafood..I only drink water..I don't drink alcohol..and I quit smoking (easily). Anything for my baby! When I met Dr. Lu, he told us that he has a private practice in Torrance close to Little Company of Mary, and if I had irregular cycles, then I should go in to see him for an ultrasound. Since my Medi-cal hasn't come in yet, we'd have to pay out of the pocket. Mark & I didn't mind because we wanted to know how everything is going with the baby, and proof that there really is a baby growing inside of me! We finally got out of the clinic around 1:30pm. SHEESH! 3 hours in there! And then when we were driving to Garden Grove, Mark got a speeding ticket. It was really stupid. Whatever. I don't wanna write about it. Gives me a headache, haha. Around 6pm, we had dinner with Aj & Mark S. We told Mark the news! Haha. Another ninong added. :]
Yesterday, Thursday, November 6, 2008
So I called Dr. Lu's office around 9:15am to see if they could squeeze me in today for an ultrasound. My appointment was set at 2:45pm, and I was getting anxious! I guess it's normal [when in my position] to be impatient for these sorta things. I wanted to see what the ultrasound would come out like! I was sooooooo excited that I started tearing up, just the thought of being able to see my baby for the first time. I got ready around 1ish, and by 2:20 I was out the door and headed to his office. It's a nice little office, very clean. The receptionists were really nice to me, and I filled out all the forms I needed. I paid for my ultrasound & waited. I waited for about an hour, but I understood because there were a few people ahead of me. I had no problem; I was too excited so I needed some time to calm down. The nurse took my vital signs again and began asking me about my medical history. All that stuff was easy. Then they called me into another room for my ultrasound! Yay! Once I saw the ultrasound I couldn't stop smiling! That little peanut! For some reason, I have the idea that my baby's gonna look a lot like Mark. Haha. If you take a look at the ultrasound, there's a little bump on the bottom right. That's called a fibroid tumor; no worries though, it's not cancerous or malignant. Dr. Lu said that it will natually lessen down and that it's normal because many women get it. The baby will just push it away as it continues to grow bigger and bigger. Also, I have placenta previa which is a situation where the placenta is covering right over my cervix. The doctor said that it happens and it may just migrate away later on during the pregnancy..we can only see that later on in the pregnancy..I just can't have any "special time" with Mark anytime soon because I'm on a "pelvic rest" to prevent any bleeding. I laugh. I really don't mind because fuck, I'm never in the mood for anything. I'm moody, cranky, hungry 24/7, sick. WHATEVER. Besides those two, Dr. Lu says everything should be okay..he gave me more and more prenatal vitamins, and my next appointment with him will be December 5th (I believe it's for blood work). I'm excited! I also requested a consent form from Dr. Lu for me to give to the dentist in order to get this damn tooth yanked out..I CAN'T WAIT TO GET THIS THING OUT! It's not AS painful, but it's irritating and still in the way. I'll be making my appointment with the dentist ASAP.
So the due date should be around May 28, 2009-June 2, 2009. It's really "not sure" because my period cycles were irregular, so it's kinda hard to tell. That's why the ultrasound says I'm about 10 weeks and 2 days. He said just follow my due date of May 28..it's around there somewhere.
SO NOW TODAY,
I'm planning on telling my dad. I wonder how he'll react; hopefully he will take the time to hear me out. I'm sure he will. My dad shows much concern & cares about my health. I'm sure he'll love his grandchild, just as he does with all his other grandchildren.
I'm more scared of Mark's mom. She scares the living shit out of me. On Wednesday, his mom was asking him, "What's wrong with Calee?" and Mark was like, "I don't know, she's just sick." She's like, "What do you mean sick? What's wrong?" He's responded, "I DONT KNOW, she's just not feeling well." She asked, "Is she pregnant?! I better not hear that she's pregnant, Mark." UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. [scared face]
Anyways. Gotta prepare myself to explain the news to my dad. Wish me luck everyone! I hope you guys enjoy my little journal entries as I continue to update my every day life as a pregnant fattie. Much love! <3
The following are going to be recaps [from what I can remember] of the past 2 weeks that I haven't been able to share with everyone.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
This was the day that Margaux was put to sleep ): I was already back home in Lomita because I couldn't take the pain back home. Just looking at my other dogs made me soooo sad. So at home I just stayed in bed ALL DAY...I was too stressed / sad / angry, but most of all, I was nauseous. I felt like I couldn't get up to walk or to exercise; I was too lazy to get food.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Mark & I decided to go take Aj to dinner with us in Thai Town. I fell asleep on our way there, and once I got up, I felt incredibly sick. I wanted to throw up, and I lost my appetite. I couldn't decide what to order because I wasn't craving anything on the menu. I just stuck to Mark's suggestion & ordered me some pad thai since I hadn't eaten that in a long time. Once I received my plate, I looked down & I couldn't even stand the way my food looked. It was just so unattractive to me. I was thinking to myself, Wtf is wrong with me? I LOVE PAD THAI. I took about 3 spoonfuls and then stopped. I couldn't eat. I couldn't drink my Thai iced coffee (which I usually love as well). I just kept telling them, "I don't know. I just really don't feel good right now. Maybe I'm just stressed." We went home afterwards & I went to sleep.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Rwang & TN picked me up around 1-2ish. We went to Downtown LA, and throughout that entire day, I felt like SHIT. Walking around down Santee Alley was like hell to me. My nostrils were dry so it hurt when I would breathe. I felt super thirsty, sluggish, hot, and most of all, my head was just pounding. I just didn't feel interested in any of the stores or products because I was so concentrated on how sick I felt. I was so hungry until we finally ended up at a CPK on Sunset Blvd. After our lunch, Jeanillie & Joe finally met up with us. We went to Melrose to check out a couple things, then Jeanillie & Joe were kind enough to drive me home. Mark was telling me, "Arnie & them wanna go eat Korean BBQ" and I kept telling him, "Man, I don't really know if I'm in the mood for Korean BBQ..." We all went anyway. Once I got my food, I took a few bites, but after that I just felt like I couldn't swallow any more of it. It just didn't taste appealing to me whatsoever. And here again, I kept thinking, WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?! I LOVE KOREAN BBQ! Ironically after that, I was craving some Yogurtland, but since there was a lame checkpoint going on in front of the store, we just headed back towards Torrance to grab some McFlurrys & cookies @ McDonald's.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
We had plans to go to the valley to visit Jeanillie & Joe. Once we got off the freeway, we picked up Shehan. I wasn't feeling AS BAD this day, but I was still having a weird appetite. Everyone wanted McD's, but I felt like I couldn't eat as much of it. I ordered some nuggets, but I felt like I was but WASN'T in the mood for it. Idk. It's kinda hard to explain. We went bowling & played with the Wii at Joe's. I had a fun night; I just had no idea what was going on with my body.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
I had no plans on this Sunday so all I did was stay home & plan our trip to San Francisco. We were planning to go on some tours and visit some fun places like Alcatraz & the Winchester Mansion. I was so excited! I basically used up my entire day looking for the perfect hotel & trying to figure our agenda for each day of our stay.
October 27, 2008
Mondays..Mondays are boring for me because that's when Mark goes to school..so I stayed home and was STILL was concentrated on planning our San Francisco trip. We were planning to go on November 13-16 since Mark was going to have a short break from school. I was just TOO excited. I had the hotel sorted out; all I did was wait for Mark to get home so we could book our reservation & purchase all our other tickets. But throughout the day, I felt nauseated. I kept telling Mark on AIM, "Babe, I feel sick again. I don't know what's wrong with me, seriously." He looked at me and was like, "Since I'm about to leave, maybe I should buy you a pregnancy test." And I would constantly be like, "SHUT UP. I'm not freakin' pregnant." So when he left, I just had my web browser on the hotel reservation, ready to be made once he got home. I just went on Myspace & all that crap. Once he got home, he pulled out an E.P.T. box. I was like, "Oh, you really did buy it." I opened the box and said, "Well I gotta pee anyways so might as well take it now." When I was in the bathroom, I kept thinking to myself, This thing is gonna come out negative..I don't know why he even spend money on a more expensive brand... Haha. As soon as I dipped the test in (I know, gross) the circle made a plus sign. In my head, I was like WHAT! WHAT?! WHAT?!?!?!??! I ran out with the test and I was like "BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE BABE" and I was scrambling all over the place to find the E.P.T. box to check what the symbols meant again. HAHA. I was just in shock, thinking ARE YOU SERIOUS?! IS THIS A JOKE?! But it turned out to be true. I went up to Mark and said, "Look Babe, I'm pregnant. I'm really pregant." His reaction was like O_O. No words. Haha. Of course it would come to us as a shock. Nothing was planned (not that I'm saying I regret anything) so it was a huge surprise to us. Throughout the entire night, all I could think of was that there really is a baby inside of me. There really is. Mark kept asking me, "So what do you wanna do Babe? Are you sure you're ready?" For me, I already know what I've gotten myself into. It's not going to easy; it's going to take a lot of patience, care, love, dedication. Janelle was the first person I told. The only person I told that night. Mark just held me the entire time & all I had was this feeling of excitement..that it's really true. Things like these should never be considered a mistake, especially when it's with the one you love. It's a blessing.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
So I went to this place called the Pregnancy Help Center in Torrance. They were REALLY nice and helpful to me. I saw a nurse who took all my vital signs. I had a slight fever, but she said it's due to the rising hormones. I got weighed in, and I wanted to cry. I gained 3 pounds from where I really "stopped" losing weight. AHHHHHHHHHH! Just the thought of losing 30 pounds and having to gain it alllllll back! Scares me, haha. But damn, if this is the only 9 months where I can pig out & eat eat eat, might as take advantage of it, right?! Anyways, I took a pregnancy test through them. They confirmed it for me! I'm preggo! They gave me free prenatal vitamins. I get free prenatal vitamins throughout my entire pregnancy. I'm thankful for tax payers..they allow these clinics to provide these free services for girls who are in the same position as I am. I also took an STD screen. My appointment with the OBGYN was scheduled for the following Wednesday along with a nutrition class. Mark came by after my appointment (bc he had to head out to school), and I told him, "Yup Babe, it's official. You're gonna be a dad." And he sat there and was like, "Wow. You're pregnant." lol. After that I went to Albertsons & picked up everything that looked attractive to me. YUM!!!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Aj came over at night, and Mark decided to tell him the big news. Aj had to guess though, and he was like, "Are you guys getting your own apartment?" NO. "Who does this pertain to?" Mark & I pointed at the each other at the same time. LOL. I was like, "BABE YOURE MAKING IT TOO OBVIOUS." Aj goes, "Is somebody pregnant?!" Haha. I AM! And he congratulated us and gave us a hug. He's excited to be one of the ninongs. He's about to be an uncle next month too! We all decided to go to TGIF and have a little celebration. David and Janelle tagged along as well. Don couldn't make it, and Mark S. was on his way to San Francisco. Next time though, we thought, next time. I was sooooooo hungry. I swear this whole day I was nauseated, but I ate sooo much, and by the time TGIF came along, I was STILL STARVING. I was pissed because the food took forever, and once I got my food, I took like small bites and started eating everyone else's food. HAHAHA. My cravings have gone retarded. Also, wearing jeans doesn't feel comfortable for me anymore. I'm always wearing my leggings now. I feel like my tummy can breathe better. My pants still fit me though..reminds me that at least I'm still weighing less than I did a year ago, and that once this baby comes out, I'll be losing it all and more. Oh yeah, and to end my night, I ate like half of those huge banana splits that they have. YUM! I had to drive cholo to my house because she was drunk. Haha. Everyone was drunk except ME. No complaints though. Haha.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Halloweeeeen! I was so sad that I didn't get me a costume. TN suggested for me to be JUNO! Aww, I really wanted to do that. Haha. Sadly, I felt SICK throughout the entire day. I felt like my stomach was going to explode & I was gonna yack yack yack. Gross. So Halloween was kinda boring for me. It's okay though.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
MY BOTTOM WISDOM TOOTH WAS KILLING ME. For a while now, I've known that my bottom wisdom teeth were impacted, but I never felt the pain until my bottom left one started popping out. OMG. It is painful! It was preventing me from opening my mouth and eating correctly. It hurt when I would brush my teeth or even blow my nose. I was very agitated. First I'm nauseous from this pregnancy and now I'm having this tooth issue?! AHHHHHHhh. It's just hard for me to figure out how to solve the issue since I don't have dental insurance anymore (since my real mother decided to FUCK me over), and my tooth requires oral surgery which would mean I would have to be put under general anesthesia, and that a big NO NO since I'm pregnant. Anyways, Don was having a very BELATED birthday celebration at Paul & Clare's house so we went. I was starving! Haha. This stomach of mine. So I gobbled up on some spaghetti. Mmm, and the cupcakes were yummy. Everyone congratulated me & took a shot for me. Thanks ladies! (: But by 10pm, I was feeling very exhausted so Mark and I decided to go home (although he wreaked of alcohol and smoke, he was able to drive..I can't drive stick-shift!). I was pretty tired. Tired tired me.
Sunday, November 2nd-Tuesday, November 4
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my wisdom tooth was serrrrrriously killing me! I can't even think about the nausea anymore..all I could think about was how painful my tooth was..I couldn't concentrate on anything else. I had to buy Tylenol (it's safe for pregnancy) because the pain is just sooo unbearable. I even cried one night because it's just so stressful..the pain was getting worse, and it was getting hard for me to sleep. I tried putting ice on it, but it was only temporary relief; once I took it off, the pain just came back. I don't like the idea of taking too many Tylenol pills (although my OBGYN says it's safe) so I tried refraining from taking them. On that Monday, Mark & I went to this place in Wilmington to apply for Medi-cal. We waited for about an hour or so, but we finally got it over with. They said it may take up to 5 weeks for me to receive a response, sigh. Too many chicks getting knocked up in LA County, I'm guessing. Haha!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Mark & I went to my nutrition class at the free clinic around 10:30..the nutritionist didn't get there until around 11:50am. AHHHH! We had somewhere to go, and I had scheduled an appointment at 3pm with a dentist that I found through 1-800-DENTIST (haha). The video they showed us cracked me up. "You may crave things that are normally never eaten..such as dirt, clay..." I was like, "WTH? Who craves DIRT?!" Haha. And the lady kept saying "Don't eat this, don't eat that." Easy for me. I don't eat seafood..I only drink water..I don't drink alcohol..and I quit smoking (easily). Anything for my baby! When I met Dr. Lu, he told us that he has a private practice in Torrance close to Little Company of Mary, and if I had irregular cycles, then I should go in to see him for an ultrasound. Since my Medi-cal hasn't come in yet, we'd have to pay out of the pocket. Mark & I didn't mind because we wanted to know how everything is going with the baby, and proof that there really is a baby growing inside of me! We finally got out of the clinic around 1:30pm. SHEESH! 3 hours in there! And then when we were driving to Garden Grove, Mark got a speeding ticket. It was really stupid. Whatever. I don't wanna write about it. Gives me a headache, haha. Around 6pm, we had dinner with Aj & Mark S. We told Mark the news! Haha. Another ninong added. :]
Yesterday, Thursday, November 6, 2008
So I called Dr. Lu's office around 9:15am to see if they could squeeze me in today for an ultrasound. My appointment was set at 2:45pm, and I was getting anxious! I guess it's normal [when in my position] to be impatient for these sorta things. I wanted to see what the ultrasound would come out like! I was sooooooo excited that I started tearing up, just the thought of being able to see my baby for the first time. I got ready around 1ish, and by 2:20 I was out the door and headed to his office. It's a nice little office, very clean. The receptionists were really nice to me, and I filled out all the forms I needed. I paid for my ultrasound & waited. I waited for about an hour, but I understood because there were a few people ahead of me. I had no problem; I was too excited so I needed some time to calm down. The nurse took my vital signs again and began asking me about my medical history. All that stuff was easy. Then they called me into another room for my ultrasound! Yay! Once I saw the ultrasound I couldn't stop smiling! That little peanut! For some reason, I have the idea that my baby's gonna look a lot like Mark. Haha. If you take a look at the ultrasound, there's a little bump on the bottom right. That's called a fibroid tumor; no worries though, it's not cancerous or malignant. Dr. Lu said that it will natually lessen down and that it's normal because many women get it. The baby will just push it away as it continues to grow bigger and bigger. Also, I have placenta previa which is a situation where the placenta is covering right over my cervix. The doctor said that it happens and it may just migrate away later on during the pregnancy..we can only see that later on in the pregnancy..I just can't have any "special time" with Mark anytime soon because I'm on a "pelvic rest" to prevent any bleeding. I laugh. I really don't mind because fuck, I'm never in the mood for anything. I'm moody, cranky, hungry 24/7, sick. WHATEVER. Besides those two, Dr. Lu says everything should be okay..he gave me more and more prenatal vitamins, and my next appointment with him will be December 5th (I believe it's for blood work). I'm excited! I also requested a consent form from Dr. Lu for me to give to the dentist in order to get this damn tooth yanked out..I CAN'T WAIT TO GET THIS THING OUT! It's not AS painful, but it's irritating and still in the way. I'll be making my appointment with the dentist ASAP.
So the due date should be around May 28, 2009-June 2, 2009. It's really "not sure" because my period cycles were irregular, so it's kinda hard to tell. That's why the ultrasound says I'm about 10 weeks and 2 days. He said just follow my due date of May 28..it's around there somewhere.
I'm planning on telling my dad. I wonder how he'll react; hopefully he will take the time to hear me out. I'm sure he will. My dad shows much concern & cares about my health. I'm sure he'll love his grandchild, just as he does with all his other grandchildren.
I'm more scared of Mark's mom. She scares the living shit out of me. On Wednesday, his mom was asking him, "What's wrong with Calee?" and Mark was like, "I don't know, she's just sick." She's like, "What do you mean sick? What's wrong?" He's responded, "I DONT KNOW, she's just not feeling well." She asked, "Is she pregnant?! I better not hear that she's pregnant, Mark." UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. [scared face]
Anyways. Gotta prepare myself to explain the news to my dad. Wish me luck everyone! I hope you guys enjoy my little journal entries as I continue to update my every day life as a pregnant fattie. Much love! <3
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