Goodbye 2008.

Hello everyone! I hope you all have a fun but safe New Year's celebration. Mark & I aren't doing a darn thing. We don't usually have anything planned every year on New Year's, so it's normal, haha. For me, I'm happy for New Year's because I'm starting it off by turning 19 weeks pregnant (: Today I've been searching online for cute little boy outfits & bibs & all that junk. It's ridiculous how soon I'm starting, but I'm SO excited over what the new year will bring us. Our baby boy will be born before summer & we're going to have a lot of memories to make. It's gonna be FUN! (and stressful and a pain, don't think I don't think about that, haha) I'm still thinking about the name, but I kinda have one already set in my mind so maybe I can convince Mark. He still keeps saying "I'm still thinking.." but I DON'T WANT TO WAIT! I wanna get cute little personalized things! And I already have my eyes set on my baby's first pair of shoes [take a guess on what brand]. Yeah, I'm crazy. TRY BEING PREGNANT, you'll feel the same! Well, I'm not gonna spoil my kid that much; I'm just too anxious for these next few months to pass by so I can finally meet my baby for the first time. Now that I know the gender, it's easier to plan! And I would love to get started on a scrapbook. That can take up my time, in a good way, instead of shopping lol.

Oh, and another good thing is that I received my Medi-Cal insurance approval in the mail today. WOOHOO! So my next appointment will be January 9th & I get to see baby again [yay]. Then I have my next 4D ultrasound on February 14th in Glendale :D I'm also allowed 10 guests! That's all I want on Valentine's Day: to see my baby! And this time, the features will be a lot clearer. I can't wait to see who the baby looks like more.

Anyways, I'm gonna go back to looking at more baby stuff, HAHA! Goodbye 2008, you have brought many good memories, some sad & unfortunate [especially Margaux's situation], but I'm grateful for everything I have experienced.

BE SAFE EVERYONE!

Boy names suggestions?

You guys need to throw some baby names at me. FIRST and/or MIDDLE names. Comment & give me some names to choose from!

See here's the thing, Mark doesn't really like any other name (at the moment) besides "Mackenzie." He loves that name. Although it's originally a boy name, it sounds so girly to me (and everyone else I told). He also loves it because he'd want his kid to be nicknamed "Mac" or "Mack." So think about it..Mack Chantarawong? That's like saying Mark's name all fobby-ish without the "R" lol.

In case some of you guys didn't know, I was already set on a girl name, that's IF we were going to have a baby girl. Her name would be "Audrey", but I wasn't set on a middle name yet. Oh well. Whenever I have a daughter, her name will be Audrey for sure! At least that was easier for Mark & I to agree on, haha. (:

So here are some BOY names that I've thought of. I haven't seriously sat down with Mark to choose among them since I wanted to make a longer list instead.

-Mackenzie (lol)
-Dylan (i <3333 this name, one of my faves, even though it's my nephew's name aka my brother's son lol, except his is spelled as "Dillon")
-Lucas
-Gabriel (this one is my fave too)
-Ethan (love this one too)
-Tristan
-Bryden
-Logan (Mark's choice too)
-Quincy (Another one of Mark's choices)

IT'S A...

BOY!

Yes, most of you guessed it right! We have a little boy on the way! I was really too desperate to wait until my January 9th appointment so I went to Prenatal Peek in Torrance to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time and if possible, to find out the gender. I just wanted to hear what's going on inside my fat belly! I can't go weeks without checking on this little one.

Once I laid back for the ultrasound, we saw that the baby wasn't moving! He was sleeping. We heard his heartbeat, and I really wanted to cry [but I didn't want to embarrass myself because once I start crying, it doesn't stop!]. He has a very strong heartbeat. It makes us so happy. Anyways, our sonographer was trying to look between the legs to find out the gender, but the little baby was sound asleep. She told me to go to the bathroom & that she'd give me some cold water afterwards. It really helped though! The baby started moving around & we were finally able to see that it's a little BABY BOY!!! Mark teared up (: He wanted to cry, but like me, he didn't want to be embarrassed ha. It was so cute to watch the baby. I'm only in my 18th week (18 weeks, 4 days today) so the baby has a more skeletal appearance. But our sonographer told us that our baby has some fat cheeks developing (unlike most fetuses this young) and a little tummy, so he's a chubby one! lol. The best time to go for "features" would be around 25-28 weeks. I just wanted to ensure that my baby's heartbeat is fine. He was so cute! He was holding his hands up as if he was on a rollercoaster ride. Then he had his legs up & was holding shis feet! HAHA. It was a really amazing experience. I'm so happy! It was beautiful, and I'm glad because I see how excited Mark is. Gosh, you guys are GOOD! Guessing it was a boy and all. Haha. I kept having dreams that it would be a girl because everyone kept saying it'll be a boy. But now we know for sure! So, here are some of the pictures and two parts for the ultrasound DVD (: ENJOY!

I'm so excited! Now I can go to Target / Babies R Us & buy random stuff xD

Baby's heartbeat

Heyyyy ladies (;

Rawr, I'm a monster!

Little hands (: Getting ready to learn Muay Thai in the future!

Like what Daddy always says, "Peace!"

You guys are bothering me; I'm trying to sleep!

There it is! Baby boy!

Grabbing his foot. Haha.

He's smiling! :D

**I GOT THE VIDEOS TO WORK! YouTube's workin' with me (: There are 2 parts because the whole DVD was 16 minutes so one whole video was too big to upload. Oh, and sorry it says "Evaluation Copy" across the videos; I had to use a free trial to convert the DVD. Ghetto, I know, but it works!**

PART 1







PART 2

Ahh, he's already the joy of my life (:

Happy does not make me happy...

...sometimes. But I forgot to mention last night that once we let that little dog onto our bed, I knew something was gonna happen. But I was nice enough to give him a chance. Then I saw him hovering over Bonnie's bed, and I told him, "Happy, you better not pee on Bonnie's bed." Right after I said that, I looked at OUR bed, and noticed a wet spot. I want to kill him sometimes. Okay, I don't want to kill him, but seriously, UGH! We just got our comforter dry cleaned too. Sigh.

He's officially not allowed on this bed until Bonnie goes home.

Post-Christmas

I hope you guys all had a great Christmas. I sure did. For starters, I'm officially 18 weeks pregnant! YAY! That's 4 and a half months in better terms, but I like counting by weeks, haha. I swear my days feel so long but the weeks just pas by so fast. It was just fun spending time with my family & dogs. My mom made some adobo, pancit, fish, the one-of-a-kind ham, and my sister fried some lumpia. GOOOOD FOOD; nothin' like my mom's Filipino food. Good laughs at the table too. I laughed 'til I cried, which was pretty ridiculous. It was my sister's fault. She had a wrapped present for me & I was like OOOOOOH I WONDER WHAT IT IS! When I opened it, I saw it was a in "Seafood City" box, and it turned out to be a a Seafood City calendar. I was like WTF IS THIS?! But not in a mad way, more like a hilarious way, cuz I seriously could not stop laughing my ass off. I really blame my hormones on it because I started crying. It's because she ended up giving my brother some lame Seafood City t-shirt, and he pointed out that said "Queen of the [something]" on it. My parents, me, Mark, my sister's boyfriend Neil were just hysterically laughing because we were just like, what IS this? And all my sister kept saying was, "I'm sorry. We're so broke this year. I couldn't get you guys anything else." And there she was, handing Mark a Nordstrom giftcard. LOL. 5 minutes later she handed me an envelope with a Christmas card and a Forever 21 giftcard. AHAHA. That's more like it ;) It was my only gift, but I'm happy. Oh, and then she gave my brother his "real" gift, which was a sweater from Macy's. Haha. All Mark kept telling my sister was, "That was a good one, that was good." [Yeah, that picture is me literally laughing/crying and Mark laughing at me. I got my giftcard, BOOYA!]



I love wrapping gifts (even though I really suck at it), and my favorite part is giving the gifts. We bought these really cute doggie gift tags to go with them (yes, you'd definitely know it's from me). But anyways, we always buy gifts to never expect anything back. I know my family, especially my parents, deserve something nice for a gift. Mark & I gave my stepmom & dad bluetooth headsets because I'm so tired of always hearing my dad yell through speakerphone everytime he calls me. Lol. We got my brother a robe, my sister's boyfriend Neil a Best Buy and Starbucks giftcard, and my sister the Juicy Couture "Viva La Juicy" gift set. She got what she wanted since her birthday's coming up on New Year's, haha. I got Mark the Lakers Swingman jersey (: He wanted a jersey. And he got ordered my Obey jacket that I wanted x] After opening the gifts, we watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall (although I had already seen it 3x). I had a good time with my family; I think it was better this year than last year because it was just straight up immediate family. Good times. The holidays wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be (due to the horrible economy & struggles & what not). Family is the best. It's too bad we didn't get to take a family picture; it's probably because they knew I looked like crap after all that crying--my energy was completely drained & I was ready to sleep. Mark decided to go home last night, and once he got to his car he gave me call saying how his car was covered in ice. Yup, Palmdale weather. Not surprised. He couldn't even close his trunk or his door. All I heard was him slamming his door 10x. It was FREEZING! I think 28 degrees? Idk.

Man, most of the pictures [of all of us] are on my mom's and sister's camera. They're probably filled with really embarrassing pictures of me.

Today it wasn't raining in Palmdale; the sun was shining bright but it was seriously windy. I hate that. It's what makes it so cold. Everything outside was covered in blocks of ice. At 7am, I could see snow falling, but it was too windy so obviously it wasn't working out. My sister, her boyfriend, my brother, and I all went to the Antelope Valley Mall after lunch. I seriously hate that mall. It's so boring. Nothing interests me there. I tried looking around, but nothing. It was completely packed, the aisles are so narrow. I was getting tired. So we decided to head to Target. I love Target (: My sister bought me 2 pairs of maternity jeans. They make me happy! I ESPECIALLY love the ones with the entire belly coverage. It's comfy (: Now I gotta take them to the dry cleaners to get them cut and made skinnier lol. I also bought Mark NBA 2k9 for his XBOX 360 since I know he's been wanting that game. Well, Don gave us a giftcard so it contributed to half (: Might as well, right? I'm happy with what I got this Christmas because the most precious gift I could definitely hold is new life growing inside me :D

After Target, we headed back home. I ate some more then got packing on my stuff. I had to prepare the backseat of my car since I took Bonnie home (: She's sleeping right now. Once I got home, I gave her a bath (and she hates bath time..well, water in general. Weird for a Lab, right? She really hates water). And the funny part is now that I have a door mirror (well, those body sized mirrors), she likes staring at herself (or at me) through it. She seems pretty interested. Haha. I also decided to treat myself. I got my TOMS! I might as well get what I asked Santa for since I know he gave up on me after I turned 10. And Disney Couture came out with a cute Beauty & the Beast collection & the rose bangle was a definite must-have for me. I love it. Well, I'm gonna go now. Bonnie's bothering me because she wants me to throw her ball around. Hope everyone had a safe and fun holiday! And GOODNIGHT!

Merry Christmas Eve!

I had to take pictures before it started raining. Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, from me, Mark, little fetus, and all our doggies (:

2 months ago..

Margaux was taken away from me. Every single time I think about it, it still makes me incredibly sad, and I cry. It still isn't that easy, but like I always say, it's better that she's is a safe place now. I still can't believe how it happened so sudden & so early in her life. I still think about her all the time. I just can't forget the date whenever it passes by. I'm just so convinced that part of her lives in our baby.

Ily.

The things that reassure me that I'm pregnant.

I love writing these blogs because I know that later on, I'm going to look back on them & probably want to re-live my pregnancy. So I like documenting EVERYTHING! So sorry if anything seems overexposed or explicit...like the following, lol.

So late last night (or early this morning, around 12:30am), after hours of complaining to Mark about how my breasts were aching/hurting so much, he finally said, "Babe, it's because you're lactating." And I'm like, "What?! Shut up, no I'm not." The pain was aggravating so I tried massaging (yeah, sounds weird) and BAM! I was lactating a very little amount of clear liquid (Some early colostrum, no?!) and I was like whoa! And Mark said, "See, I told you. You never believe me." I don't know HOW he knows my body better than I do. Last time I remember him doing this was when I kept complaining about how sick I was and he kept saying, "Babe, it's because you're pregnant." I never believe the guy, but he's always right! And I didn't think I was leaking because I'm still pretty early in my pregnancy but I know it's normal & has happened to many other people. Anyways, that was the first time I noticed my boobies doing that. I guess that means that I'll be a good candidate for breastfeeding after the baby's born. Yay! It's another reality-check to me that I really DO have a baby inside! Well yeah, I just wanted to share that. Coming from a first-timer. Haha.

17 weeks.

Time does fly by pretty quickly.

Anyways, this week has been exhausting. Yesterday Janelle & I went Christmas shopping @ Cerritos Mall. It's ridiculous how easily tired I get. We ate at CPK around 2 and I wanted to knock out afterwards. Ahh. But yeah, I don't feel like shopping over the weekend because I know it's just going to be ridiculous. People are CRAZY at the mall especially on those busy weekends such as this upcoming weekend before Christmas. So anywho, I got some presents for both mine & Mark's families, and we went to Target for more presents (and I was desperate for an umbrella). It was pouring yesterday. I really wish I was able to drive to Palmdale & enjoy the snow! The 14 freeway was closed, but I believe it reopened this afternoon. My dad didn't go to work yesterday or today. He attempted to, but it was impossible. It wasn't snowing that much last year; it was icy but no snow. The dogs were having so much fun! I posted some pics in my bulletin on myspace, but I'll probably upload some on here later. It was nice to see those pictures; my brother & dad took them and emailed them to me shortly after. I was jealous, grr.

Today, Janelle & I headed to South Coast Plaza. I didn't shop. I didn't feel like it. Shopping for presents this year is so not fun. I think everyone knows how it is. We're just all broke. It's so lame. Anyways, Cholo cooked me brunch & I just wanted to sleep afterwards (again lol). I have no energy! I'm just pooped all the time. Gosh. After South Coast Plaza we headed to Santa Ana to meet TN & Kate at her house. We then headed to Pj's Abbey which is a restaurant in an actual old church. Kinda creepy, but it was nice. The food was good, bread was yummy, but all the entrees are like $16+. We were the only Asians there, mwahah. It was also nice because there was a violinist playing & he played Music of the Night from Phantom of the Opera. It was so pretty! Well whenever Kate gets to send me the pictures, I'll post them. It was good catching up with the girls especially since I've been pretty much locked up in this room most of the time.

Mark is finally off for vacation until January 5th so I won't be as bored at home alone everyday. YAY. There are so many movies I'd like to watch in theaters, but Marley & Me is my priority this Christmas (: I tear up everytime I see that trailer lol. But anyways, hopefully the next 3 weeks flies by quickly with all these holidays because I'm way too anxious for my next ultrasound. So I tried posting that video that I last showed you guys (below) through YoutTube, but it uploaded faster on Blogspot so I had no idea whether it uploaded on my YouTube account or not. The next day, I logged on my YouTube account & saw a bunch of messages from random pregnant girls asking for advice such as, "Hi, my name is _____, and I'm 15 weeks pregnant. I'm experiencing issues with gas so I was wondering if you were too. I tend to fart a lot lately, and I would appreciate it if you can mention it in your next video." HAHAHAHA. Uhhh. Hmm. It was never my intention to post a video for a "Dear Pregnant Calee.." type of situation, but I thought it was pretty funny. I actually answered her since I told her that I didn't know when the next time I would make a video was. Haha. All I wanted was to post that video on my blog; now I've become some pregnant chick giving advice to other pregnant chicks on YouTube. Weird.

Well, hope everyone's having a week and getting ready for Christmas. I'll probably post and say hi around next week when I'm in Palmdale. Bonnie will say hi too. Maybe a video. Mwaha. Bye guys.

I tried taking a pic...

...of my belly, but apparently my camera died. Darn batteries. So I recorded a video through my webcam instead! Sorry about the horrible sound quality. That last picture I posted was taken earlier than when I posted it, but still, the baby is growing fast! Enjoy (:

4 months

= 16 weeks today. I can't believe how time flies by so fast. I'll have a belly picture posted sometime during the week. I swear I get bigger everyday.

Well, this week hasn't been much of an eventful week. Since Mark is in school Monday through Thusdays, I'm home everyday, doing nothing but eating, watching tv, more eating, napping, going online, watching movies, reading pregnancy books. Pregnancy has been treating me well though. I haven't felt nauseated all week (yay!) so I'm pretty relieved over that. What does suck is that I still have a stuffy nose & I wake up with a sore throat everyday. I'm positive that it's the whack weather. It's so cold these days! I love winter, but dang, my room does not wanna heat up even with the heater on. It gets cold in here. But I'm thankful that we finally took our down comforter to the dry cleaners last week because it's been dirty and unused since Happy peed on it before (because he hates Bonnie & thinks EVERYTHING in this room is his territory). And the reason why all our comforters need to be washed IS because he peed on ALL of them. Gosh. But yeah, this blanket keeps me warm. Mark finds it uncomfortable because he has this whole over-sweating issue; he gets all hot in the middle of the night & ends up having to change or something. Idk. He hates this blanket, but I love it so he really has no choice. At least he doesn't have to deal with going pee every couple of hours during the night. Ahhh. It really takes some force to get myself out of bed, but sometimes I REALLY have to go. Along with the peeing all the time, I gotta deal with my swollen gums. I floss everyday & they easily bleed; I get the urge to floss so much because my gums are so swollen, like I feel the need to massage them or something. It gets really irritating. They say that swollen gums during pregnancy is quite common. Also, I've been trying to get used to sleeping on my left side more often. I used to sleep on my left all the time, I don't know what's wrong with me. But they say that if you sleep on your left side, it allows more bloodflow / oxygen for the baby. It's kinda hard once my arm starts hurting or falling asleep. I'm still comfortable sleeping on my back or on my right side too (for now). Eh. Okay, so maybe pregnancy hasn't been treating me so well. It's just been treating me the normal way it's supposed to, hah.

I haven't felt the baby move yet! People are so lucky to feel them so early during their pregnancies. I'm so eager to know what it's like...maybe by next month I'll be able to feel something. I'm so curious to know what this little baby is doing in there. One more month & we'll know the baby's gender! When it comes to that, it seems that time is flying by VERY SLOWLY. Patience patience patience. I must enjoy my entire pregnancy!

Well, I'm kinda hungry. I'm gonna end my blog with a list of things I've been craving/not craving since I've been pregnant. I'll probably add/edit later on, whatever to my desire. Mwaha.

Things I crave quite often:
-Bread / pandesal. That's either with cream cheese, cheddar cheese, peanut butter, butter. Name it. I want bread.
-Milk. One thing you guys gotta know is that my entire life growing up at home, I was only allowed to drink milk in the morning and night only. Milk at breakfast, milk at dinner. I wasn't allowed to drink water or soda during dinner. Then when I moved in with Mark, I finally broke away from my parents' rules & drank whatever I wanted! But now, I just want milk at dinner. Mmmmm.
-Water. I love water. Always have. I drink lots of it.
-Chocolate: Hot chocolate. Chocolate ice cream. Chocolate candy (TWIX). I love chocolate.
-French fries. But I limit my eating of french fries. I crave it a lot though. I love McD's mmm.
-Chips & salsa. SO BOMB!
-Hot dogs! They say that some studies show that hot dogs aren't safe for pregnant women. My doctor said that as long as it's cooked all the way, it's totally fine. I love eating National Hebrew hot dogs with rice & ketchup. My stepmom always makes it for breakfast at home. YUM!
-Rice.
-Bananas. I've always loved bananas.
-Jamba Juice Banana Berry (my fave)
-Waffles/pancakes with syrup
-Egg sandwiches. Scrambled eggs, not that gushy, mushy egg sandwich crap
-Mexican food! <3 style="font-style: italic;">Souplantation.
-Coca-Cola! I miss drinking Coke. When I get the chance, I'll drink non-caffeinated Coke or Pepsi. But that hardly ever happens.

Things I dislike at the moment:
-Korean BBQ..why? I don't know. When I think about it, I want to barf. It's sad. I loved Korean BBQ! We'd go eat some with Arnie, Leslie, & the rest of the family all the time. Now I can't ever go with them because I could barely stand the look of it.
-Thai food. I think it's because I ate it right when I started feeling nauseated before I found out I was pregnant. Now that thought of eating Thai food isn't so great :[ Hopefully once I'm not pregnant, this will all go away haha
-HEALTHY FOOD. I don't think any pregnant woman WANTS to crave healthy food, right? But I know I gotta eat em anyway. I don't crave them though like I used to when I was on my diet. Crazy how my mentality changes. But I do love Souplantation.
-Burgers. I mean, I can eat them, but somehow I just don't feel comfortable eating them. They don't make me happy like they used to.


Okay, yeah, all that typing about food has seriously made me so hungry. I'm going to find food now.

Sick.

I haven't written in the last couple of days since I've been sick since Friday after I came from the doctor's office. It's still bugging me; I have a headache and a stuffy nose right now. On Friday I probably drank 10 bottles of water and double the amount on Saturday. I pee like every 20 minutes, haha. I tried the most "natural" ways of getting rid of my sickness since taking meds does scare me [with the baby and all]. My doctor said I could take Tylenol or Robittussin in cases when I'm sick with a cold and cough. I had the worst sore throat so I was going crazy with cough drops, but they didn't seem to work. Food kinda made me feel queezy, soup just made me feel hot, but throughout the entire weekend I've loaded up on so much water. I pretty much drank a whole case and more. Now my sore throat is gone, but I find it hard to rest sometimes because it hurts when I breathe since it's too dry or at times, I can't breathe at all because my nose is so stuffy. Ahhh. This puts me in such a crappy mood, ESPECIALLY SATURDAY NIGHT, when Mark was out all night & I couldn't get my ass out of bed, and I had no medication. I asked him to bring me back some Tylenol because I was seriously dying, but he didn't get home until 2am (and you can just imagine how cranky I was. I wasn't gonna let myself fall asleep until I was satisfied with yelling at him). So yeah, that's been me all weekend, just laying in bed trying my best to get well & still drinking tons and tons of water.

I've decided that I'm not going to go through the whole screening for my baby. I know it's important to see if there is anything wrong, but I'd rather not go through it because I know that no matter what, I will love and care for my baby. Why would I let myself stress out throughout my entire pregnancy? I want to enjoy every day of it, and as long as I see through the ultrasounds and healthy heartbeats that my baby is doing okay, then I'm satisfied. So far everything feels good and normal. Hopefully (praying) that my baby is as healthy as can be.

No more gummy bear!

There's our baby!! Already growing big! It made Mark & I so happy to see this on the ultrasound screen. (: He was wiggling around and throwing his arms and feet everywhere. And he was ramming his head into the wall, it was pretty funny to watch. It was SO cute I wanted to cry. You can see his spine and his big ol' alien head!! Ahhhhhhhhh, happy me (:

So good news. When I had my first ultrasound, the doctor discovered that I had placenta previa which means the placenta was hanging low in my cervix when it's usually supposed to just be hanging on the walls of the uterus. This could cause bleeding, but the ultrasound I had today determined that it has moved back to the walls!! YAY! It's so relieving to hear that. Whew, God is on my side today.

Another thing is that apparently I'm not 14 weeks..I'm 15 weeks pregnant! The doctor said that the baby was so tiny in the first ultrasound that it was hard to determine. But today's ultrasound measured out to be 15 weeks and 1 day, and the baby's estimated due date is May 28th as we all originally believed it would be. The receptionist said that if I wanted to have the blood tests done, it would have to be done between 13-18 weeks, but we'll have to see if I receive my Medi-Cal beforehand. It's pretty pricey, I'M SURE, but if my insurance comes in, I'll go and take the tests.

So here we are, awaiting January 9th! That's my next ultrasound AKA THE DAY WE FIND OUT IF THE BABY IS A BOY OR A GIRL! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm so anxious. So anxious.

Btw, the doctor said I gained a lot of weight. HAHAHA. I can't help it :( I'm so hungry all the time. I guess I gotta start exercising more. Sigh.

Well, off to pig out, I'm really hungry. Have a good day everybody!!

Poll.

Everyone that's voting "Boy" for the gender is making Mark VERY VERY HAPPY! hahahaha. We'll just have to wait and see, no?

Ultrasound tomorrow!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! I can't wait.

Okay fine..

I decided to post a belly picture. I shall not be ashamed! I'm fat, and I have to accept it. MWAHAHAHA! (by the way, I took this picture when I was REALLY REALLY FULL..keep that in mind, lololol)

So here is me, 14 weeks pregnant.

Oh, baby!

Dear Santa...

Hello Kitty Vintage Cuff Tee, $24

Louis Vuitton Batignolles Vertical, this is for you to look at Babe *wink* ok, I'm just dreaming..

Disney Couture Cinderella Pave Glass Slipper Necklace, $60

Snowball Hoodie Scarf, $38

Harajuku Lovers "Love" perfume, .33 ounce, $25

Forever 21 gift card

Snoogle Maternity Pillow, $50



American Apparel California Fleece Pullover Raglan Hoody Dress, $39

Lomo Diana Dreamer Camera, $65

Toms in White Canvas and Classic Glitter, $42 & $48

Silence & Noise Motorcycle Jacket, $128

Dita Supadupa Sunglasses, $200





Toms Wrap Boot in Olive, $98





Paramore: The Final Riot DVD, $19.99





Juicy Couture "Kate" Maternity Skinny Jeans, I really don't want this pair, I just want a pair of Maternity SKINNY Jeans ): Why do they all have to be so expensive?!





Hello Kitty Beanie, $14.99

Books are fun.

So Mark & I went to Borders earlier tonight so Mark Santos could tutor him on his math. I obviously went because I wanted to invade the Pregnancy section. I collected 4 books to read while we stayed at the coffee tables. I first looked through The Pregnancy Bible (Mark & Mark were like, "Oh wow" when I showed them all the naked pregnant girls in the book). It was pretty informative. I didn't buy it since I already bought a used version of "Pregnancy, Childbirth, and the Newborn: A Complete Guide" online. Those reference-type books are sooo freakin' expensive. Sheesh. I just bought Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy & The Girlfriends' Guide to Pregnancy. I read reviews about them online; everyone seemed to love Belly Laughs. I don't see a reason why not because once I started reading it, I was all cracking up. I guess because she's pretty blunt, straight forward, and has that "attitude" that I can relate to (the bitchy side). So funny. There's a part where she wrote about how she was in New Orleans with her husband (this was before she found out she was pregnant) and she was starving her ass off & all she kept doing was demanding the waiter and every other waiter that passed by to give her the usual bread that they serve. I guess her waiter was taking a lifetime to return, and all she could think of was "I want my fucking bread." Man, shit happens when you're pregnant & starving. It is anot a good mix. I guess so aggravated & nauseated. I JUST WANT FOOD IN MY STOMACH! Anyways, but with The Girlfriends' Guide, I read many reviews of unhappy readers who were "offended" by the writers negativity and all this bs. It's just a book, cmon people! They say it's not the type of book for serious, uptight expectant mothers--you'd need a some sense of humor. I guess I'll be okay reading it; I'm moody, whiney, and sarcastic so I'll survive. We were also discussing with Mark S. about our upcoming plans..we all wanna go to San Francisco this month! Hopefully our plans fall through. I wanted to go so bad last month, but now that my nausea has slightened (a little bit), I think I'll survive a vacation up north. That would be a lot of fun.

Anyways, thanks to CHOLO for coming with me to the valley today to pick up my passport from my dad. Daddy was like, "Don't make your seatbelt too tight, you're going to hurt the baby." Aw, Lolo is concerned. How sweet. lol. We went to Topanga Mall to have lunch at Red Robin. I was driving around the parking lot (close to Red Robin) trying to find parking until I saw a space that was pretty close to the door; when we pulled up it said, "Expectant Mothers Only" and I was like "Oh shoot....OH WAIT, I'm an expectant mother! Am I allowed to park here? I mean, I LOOK pregnant, look at how fat I am..." and cholo was like, "Let's park here!" But then I decided to be "moral" and I said, "Man, but I feel bad for those expectant mothers who are like..a week away from their due date and are ready to pop." So I decided to park somewhere else. I'm still able to walk; I'm fine. For now.

Anyways, Janelle & I have to go tomorrow to show my proof of citizenship for my Medi-Cal application. I was gonna make Mark go with me, but I don't wanna make him wake up too early cuz I know school wears him out. But hopefully tomorrow turns out fine. I'm so burnt out from all that driving today. Mark is finally selling his Honda Accord tomorrow! A family friend decided to buy it for their son; I'm gonna miss that car. It was always my spare when Mark stole my car away. Oh well.

Okay well I need rest. I can't wait until Friday! Goodnight all.

Ahhh, cramps.

I'm so full. It hurts. Today I had Jollibee & I bought a bag full of hot pandesal from Valerio's (:

So now I can say that I'm 14 weeks pregnant! Yay, I'm "officially" in my 2nd trimester. I love going on this website (http://3dpregnancy.parentsconnect.com/calendar/14-weeks-pregnant.html) to read about my weekly status. Haha. It makes me laugh because many of the jokes regarding my body are so true.

Mark & I are planning to rent a fetal doppler from Stork Radio. I called my doctor's office & asked if I would be able to hear my baby's heartbeat this Friday. They said that the doctor doesn't use a fetal doppler since he determines the baby's heartbeat through the ultrasound itself. Gah. So I'm going to ask Dr. Lu to write me a prescription because in order to rent/purchase a fetal doppler, a prescription from your doctor is required. I want the one with the recorder so I can have a keepsake (of course). Rentals range from $20-$50 a month, depending what plan & which model you choose. I'm so eager to order it already.

I wanted to get some exercise today so I decided to go to the mall (: That's my 3rd time in a week at Del Amo mall. So bad. I was trying to find this flannel shirt that I was ABOUT to buy off Forever 21's website and it just sold out! AHHHHH. So I went to the store & I couldn't find it. I didn't think I'd find it because I've been there twice already this week & I didn't remember seeing it. I bought a few things then headed to Urban Outfitters to see the other shirt I liked (very similar except I hate the fact that it's $55 more expensive than the one from Forever). I tried it on..they only had it in yellow, and I wanted the turquoise one. All the colors are pretty though; if I had a choice, I'd take all the colors. It's soo cute! So I went home (after I bought my usual Jamba Juice) and purchased the turquoise shirt off the U.O. website. It's backordered until 12/19 -_- AHHHH. Oh well. As long as I get it. Plus, it's long & like a dress so it's perfect for my growing belly.

Walking around the mall felt so uncomfortable. I wore a really lose shirt, but my belly doesn't wanna hide. I already look like I'm 5 months pregnant, I SWEAR. I already had a belly before I got pregnant; the whole reason I went on Jenny Craig was to get rid of my fat! And now here I am, fatter than I'll ever be. Hahaha. I know I shouldn't whine, but seriously, my belly isn't as big as I would be in 5 months so it doesn't look like I'm pregnant; more like FAT. So people probably look and think, "Hmm, it's either she's eating wayyyyy too much or she's pregnant." Lol. But I guess that's a good thing; baby will be healthy =P

I'm going to start making my Christmas wish list. Although I doubt I'll get ANY of the items on my list (haha), I just wanna show what's been catching my attention lately. I'll do that in a separate blog so I can continue to edit it whenever I feel. Christmas is coming up so soon. I don't have a single idea of what to get anyone. The economy sucks right now, and I'm low on funds. Bare with me, family! At least we get you guys nice gifts every year compared to nothing at all!

I missed Heroes tonight, but that's okay because I prefer the no commercial version off Netflix. I need to lie down. These cramps suck. Goodnight everyone.

December already?!

Can you believe it?! Time is zooming! I love listening to 103.5 play Christmas songs all day. I loveeee it, seriously. Makes me think happy thoughts.

How was Thanksgiving / the weekend?! For me, I had a good weekend, I suppose. On Thanksgiving night, I opened 0ur room door too quick & the fan fell from the window and spilled some prettttty nasty stuff all over our pillows so we had to suffer a couple days without pillows. That kinda made me moody. But since I couldn't get much sleep, we were up at 6am on Black Friday. We went to to Best Buy & he bought himself another Xbox since his elite crashed (he just put the elite's hard drive to his new one harhar). That's all he bought since everything else was pretty useless. He already bought a lot of stuff during last year's Black Friday. For me, we went shopping at the mall! Mark treated me to some Victoria Secret & Forever 21. (: And that was my day.

Yesterday & today have been more relaxed. We finally bought our pillows last night; ahhhh, so comfy. Makes me so happy, especially my new body pillow. I wanted to get the Snoogle pillow at Target, but I'm debating whether I'll need it or not. Maybe when my bump is huge, I'll need it. As of right now, I'm doing okay. It's just annoying sleeping on my sides (I complain about this too much). Oh, and I finally bought some Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula for the stretchmarks. Gross. OH YEAH, I took pictures of my belly the other night. Yuck. I look like I'm 5 months pregnant already! BAHAHA. And no, I will not show you guys. Not yet. hahaha.

Medi-Cal gives me a headache. I received a bunch of mail from them, requesting me to fill out all this other paperwork / sign paperwork / send copies of documents / go to this one office in Rancho Dominguez to show proof that I'm a US citizen. And the office needs me to go there by December 5, and Mark has school everyday. GAHHH! This gives me such a headache. I cried because I was so stressed ): My social worker (who's also Filipino) reassured me that everything will be okay. I was hoping to get accepted for insurance soon since my appointment is this upcoming Friday so I guess I'm going to have to cancel the whole screening procedure. I'll just get the ultrasound. I want to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time. Aww. I just want to know / see that everything is okay in here. I was watching child birth videos on YouTube. GOSH! SO CUTE! I was all tearing up. It makes me anticipate that moment when I'll be lying on that hospital bed, waiting hours until I'll be ready to POP! And there will be my little baby! Aww. So exciting. I was also looking at ultrasounds at 14 weeks. Jeez, those little things like to MOVE! I can't imagine it because I don't feel a DAMN thing. It's insane. The fetus is so wild at 14 weeks; new life amazes me. If you guys see them on YouTube, you'll know what I'm talking about.

Being emotional lately has taken over me. Whatever I hear or watch, I tend to wanna cry. And sometimes I get moody & take it on Mark (like always, even before I was ever pregnant..oh well). I feel bad that he has to put up with me and my neediness :| But I guess I'll get over it soon. It's the sickness too. Today I felt so nauseated ): It makes me sad to think that I can't go out to certain places because of how sick I feel. And I hate how it's real good on certain days & then on days I wish I didn't feel sick, I'll be sick. Sigh. I hope that during my 2nd trimester, things will change. Another thing that amazes me is how quick my nails grow. I miss getting my 3D nails!! ): My nails grow soooooo quick that I have to cut them every 4-5 days. They look and feel so healthy though (: It's okay, I'll probably get them done around the baby shower or something! Bringing it back. Haha.

Well I just got finished with my test on the ABC website and now I gotta finish up on some laundry since Mark needs clean uniform for school tomorrow. Have a good night everyone.

Hmm, Cyber Monday?!

Thank you for...

-My parents and siblings. Although we don't ALL always get along and disagree on so many things, no matter what I will always be there for them like they've always been there for me. Although I don't get to spend enough time with them, I hope they know that I love them all very much, and that I'm hoping through all these rough economic times, that God will listen to their prayers &guide them through it (especially my dad).

-My good friends. Although I don't have many friends, I'm grateful for the limited number that I have-- great, understanding friends who I enjoy the company of / having great conversations and laughs with. Remember that I will always be here to talk to, vent to, go shopping with, you know, all that good stuff ;)

-My dogs! Oh, you guys have NO idea how much happiness my dogs bring me. I love spending a lot of time with them. If you've never experienced this type of "relationship" with a pet, especially dogs, you are definitely missing out. I miss my dogs already! They are sooo very special to me. Also, I'm thankful for having Margaux in my life. My dogs really impact the way I live my life...they are seriously my motivation.

-My loving boyfriend. I seriously wouldn't want anyone else on this earth. I am FOREVER grateful for being incredibly blessed by having him in my life. No one else shows as much care, patience, love, affection, and dedication as he does. No one else understands me as much as he does. I'm so glad that in whatever I do, he and I go through it together. We makes the best memories. I love my Markie always. He's my everything.

-My unborn baby. Now that's the one thing I'm most thankful for this season. Although I'm still young & things happened unexpectedly, having a baby is a GIFT and a true blessing. I am anticipating my new life of constant crying, strollers, baby poop, diapers, baby food, booties, soft blankets--sigh (: Mark & I are going to be the dopest parents ;)

-My life. I know there are times when I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I get so emotional and weak when I have a rough day or when I feel like huge failure, but I pick myself up realizing what I've got and how fortunate I've been. I watch the news about the missions helping out for Thanksgiving, feeding those in need. It made me so sad. I am just lucky, like many of you guys, to have a life where our parents have raised us & gave us many great things to guide us to live a good life.

I hope everyone has had a safe and happy Thanksgiving (: I didn't get to see my family today since we already celebrated it last weekend, but Mark & I celebrated by pigging out at Black Angus because they always have their $16.99 unlimited turkey special. Mmmm. I'm full now, sleepy, and suffering from butt cramps (lol). Much love! Goodnight.

13 weeks!

Today Janelle came down to go do a little shopping (: We had lunch at Pat & Oscar's & then headed around the mall since Janelle had a few things to pick up. The only store I found myself truly dedicated to was Forever 21. I think I picked up 10 things to try on, and I bought 8 of that 10 lol. It's hard fitting into my current clothes now that my belly's popping out ): I mean, when I'm 6 months maybe I'll accept wearing tighter clothes, but right now I don't wanna just look "fat". I was so hot inside Forever 21 (shopping is hard work), but once we stepped outside, it was sooo cold! I was surprised it hadn't started raining. We got my usual Jamba Juice then we headed for Target.

Okay, don't get me started with these freakin' emotions you get while being pregnant. I was talking to Janelle earlier today about how whenever I see a romantic or sad movie or even a freakin' commercial, I start to tear up. Anyways, getting to my point, once we got to Target, we went to see what Janelle needed to get then we started walking around the store. The baby section obviously gets me excited, but unfortunately I can't buy anything since I don't even know the baby's gender. We were walking the car seats aisle, but when we walked into the next aisle, there was a father and his daughter messing around, and the little girl was joking around saying, "Mommy, mommy! Daddy hurt me!" and the mom and dad were laughing along with her...IT WAS JUST TOO CUTE TO WATCH. And guess what happens to me?! I STARTED CRYING. It was just tearing up at first, until I realized I couldn't control myself, trying to prevent the tears from coming out. Janelle kept saying, "Oh GOD Cholo, no are you serious? Cholo, no way." Omg. I was crying! It was because I saw how happy that family was, and it makes me so emotional to think that THAT'S what I'll be going through in the upcoming few months, not to mention, years to come. It made me so happy! It's still a shock to me. I haven't cried about my pregnancy ever since I first found out about it. It really hit me when I saw that family together. Janelle couldn't stop laughing at me! And I mean, shoot, if it was the opposite way around, I think I'd be laughing at her too. She was like, "Should we go home now?!" LOL. I was like, "YES PLEASE." and this lady walked passed us and asked me, "OMG! What's wrong?! Are you okay?!" How embarrassing. Janelle told her, "Oh no, she's fine. She's pregnant. We just saw a family in the baby section & she got emotional." And the lady was like, "Ahh, I see....the hormones. Go home & get some rest!" Haha. Wow. I'm pathetic. But I'm sure once you guys are pregnant (or already have been), you'd understand. Until this day I still cannot believe what Mark & I are going through--I'm so excited. Ahhh. No more baby stores/sections for me. I'll just start bawling like an idiot.

So now I'm officially 13 weeks pregnant! Right now I feel nauseous because of my prenatal pills that I take during dinner. Ahhh. My stomach is stretching by the week. I feel it (and see it). And I'm starting to feel cramps. I'm wondering whether it's because my uterus is stretching or if I'm really GASSY (ahahahahaha). It's making me so uneasy! Sigh. And when I sleep, I don't feel comfortable lying on my stomach like I always do. I get tired on my sides already. I really would love a maternity pillow to cuddle with because Mark's not all that soft and comfy. haha. By the end of this week I will be in my 2nd trimester. Weee! It's a goal! I've been google-ing up "13 week pregnancy pictures" to see what others pregnant bellies look like! After seeing those pictures, I don't feel so bad (or fat). Well, I still do feel fat, but that's typical of me. I'm also obsessed with rubbing my belly while I'm in bed & talking to my unborn child in my head. I might sound crazy, but I think it works! Mark wants to start playing Mozart through headphones so the baby can be smart. Haha. I don't know if that'll work, but we'll definitely let the baby listen to some good music. Maybe some Paramore (; I'm excited for next week so see another ultrasound. I can't wait to see how much our fetus has grown! Also I'll be getting blood drawn to see any abnormalities (did I write about these already?) and whatever tests that are normally done around this time. Wish us luck, please! Keep us in your prayers that baby Chantarawong is healthy!

On another note, I got rid of my iPhone ): I miss that phone already. It was such a fun little gadget. What happened was, on Sunday (while I was in Palmdale) when I was charging my phone on my laptop, I was playing music on iTunes, and it asked me if I wanted to upgrade to 2.2. I was stupid enough to say YES, and since I use my phone on T-mobile, I needed this spare ATT sim card that I left at home in Torrance. So I couldn't upgrade my phone right away, and when I got back home to Torrance, I tried doing all the special switching of sim cards crap that I alwayssssss have to deal with, but it wasn't working. That crap drove me to my last nerve. I am tired of always having to switch my sim card everytime my iPhone dropped service for more than 5 minutes. I always have to stop what I'm doing, sit in the middle of a mall, or sit in the car, taking out the sim card & switching it out to another phone blahblahblahblahblah. It was just too much. Althought I LOVED my iPhone, I couldn't bare with it, and I just need to settle with a T-mobile phone in order to avoid service issues. I called someone yesterday to meet up with them to buy a T-mobile G1. Their ad said it was a black phone, and when I met up with them in Carson, it was a bronze. That was frustrating, having to deal with traffic on PCH for nothing. Then I called this other person who was selling it for $300, and he told me he'd be able to drop it off for me later on after he got out of work (he works at T-mobile at Del Amo, as he said) He said he would've been out by 5pm, but the wait got later..and later..and later..and by 8pm, I called him back and he said, "OH! I was about to text you and tell you that I'm going to be a little late." Next thing I know, it was 11pm. I gave up. So this morning, I bought one off Ebay for $280. WOO! And he was kind enough to send it using overnight shipping. So I'll be getting my new phone in tomorrow (: Good, cuz I'm tired of using this boring Razr.

Ahhh, the rain is getting louder and louder. I'm pooped & full of El Pollo Loco. Delicious! I hope everyone's being safe. I have to continue helping Mark with his algebra homework. Have a good night!

Sup?

Being in Palmdale can be very boring sometimes, but it is pretty quiet, and I love spending time with my family & dogs. Mark & I arrived here on Friday night. Bonnie's nose isn't black anymore! It turned pink which is very common in dogs, especially Labs, due to cold weather. It's starting to get cold @ night here in Palmdale, and during Winter it gets unbearable. Bonnie's lucky she has her own big insulated house. Too bad Chumbah wrecks everything inside the house (blankets and toys) so he has to sleep in another house.

For the past 2 mornings I haven't been able to sleep in because Chumbah knows I'm home. His pen is right below my room, so starting from, I'd say, 6am, he'll just continue to bark. And it's not like barking at a stranger or anything random; it's the cry for attention and food and more attention. My dad said that he doesn't even act like this at all when I'm not home. Ay, Chumbah! Drives me crazy, that big boy with a little kid attitude. If you say "Bonnie, Bonnie" he starts crying & barks at you. If you say Cinnamon's name, he barks at you. He's a little baby. Ha. I love that dog.

I've been cleaning the house all weekend. I'm exhausted. I'm so used to just being a bum at home in Lomita, doing absolutely nothing but going online, watching tv, laying in bed, and eating a lot. I'm not used to cleaning at home over there because I'm scared of what and what not to touch. But when I'm here in Palmdale, I clean everything. I was pretty exhausted Friday night after all the sweeping, vacuuming, dusting, feeding the dogs, dish washing. Ahh. Overworking the pregnant chick, I'm sure.

Yesterday we had our early Thanksgiving dinner since my parents are going to be in Vegas on the actual Thanksgiving day. My dad makes the turkey every year; mmm it was delicious. Then there was all the typical Filipino food that I don't usually care for, haha (except the traditional Valerios' pandesal, yum). I tried to eat as much as I could. My mom invited a huge amount of her coworkers so they filled up the house. Only a few relatives came by. I sang a couple songs off the karaoke & was too tired after that. I had been up since 7am all because of Chumbah's nonstop barking.

The most interesting part about yesterday was when my brother & Mark got into a huge debate over Proposition 8 (because my brother voted 'yes') and it turned into this huge mess. It was brought up because I asked my brother if he voted. I don't even know HOW we ended up talking about it, but we did. We weren't trying to argue with my brother; we were just trying to state our opinion. My brother says he has nothing against gay people, but that he doesn't believe they should get married. Mark & I argued over why that isn't fair. My brother thinks that it seems pretty fair to him because gay people have all the rights as everyone else except to get married. Well, exactly OUR point. They have all these rights BUT marriage so why hold back from that? They can have 99.9% of human rights as everyone else, but that's still NOT 100%. Even if gay people getting married doesn't SEEM like a big deal to other people, it is. They wouldn't have created a Proposition 8 if it WASN'T a big deal to them. I told my brother, "What about when they have colored bathrooms back decades ago? They fought for their rights and were brought justice." My brother said, "I think if you said that to black people, they would get offended." HMM, NOT REALLY. The guy who was IN that commercial for "NO ON PROP 8" was a black guy talking about how they used to never have rights, how Armenians were never allowed to live in the Central Valley, how African Americans weren't allowed to ride buses. Have you guys seen that commercial? They used to play it a lot before election day. So anyways, no, I don't think black people should be offended really. Also another thing, I told my brother, "It's like saying mentally challenged people couldn't get married." And you know what my brother said? He said, "That's totally different. Mentally challenged people don't have the capacity to get married." Now I think that would offend people. Not everyone who's disabled is STUPID. My goodness. The decision isn't based on RACE, MENTAL STATE, SEX, OR RELIGION. This is based on human rights and how EVERYONE in this country deserves 100% of it. My brother kept saying, "You guys will understand when you have your kid one day." Um, I really don't know WHAT that's supposed to mean, but if my kid turned out gay, I honestly don't give a damn. As long as my child is responsible and healthy, live your life! I told my brother, "That's another thing when I was watching those 'yes on 8' supporters. They were telling the interviewers how they're voting because they believe in the 'FAMILY' and that they're afraid that their children will turn out gay. They're also afraid of gay marriage being taught in schools. Never once in a public school was I ever taught about MARRIAGE. In a Catholic school, yes, because it's part of religion, but you SWEAR Christian schools are going to TEACH gay marriage? Ahhh, that's so ignorant. My brother believes that gay people recruit MORE gay people. I honestly don't see gay people standing on corners saying, "HEY..HEY YOU...wanna be gay?!" like WTF?! I hate how people are so ignorant to judge. That's just plain rude. No common sense. Gay people come from straight people, no? It's all connected. These "YES" supporters can believe in whatever they want, but I just wanted my brother to just hear us out; we're not trying to change his mind rather to just have him listen. He had the nerve to say that we don't know what we're talking about because we're still young. MMMMM HMMM. Religion also. Religion plays such a huge role, and my brother admitted that his decision was mostly because of his beliefs. Christians obviously don't believe in gay marriage, and all my brother could say was, "Most of California voted YES on Prop 8 anyway, why can't you guys accept it?" Um, we UNDERSTAND they voted yes, but we lost by only 5%. That means MANY are against it as well. It makes me so sad. I cry when I think about how discriminating people are. My brother said, "If the whole country were to vote, most would vote yes because the USA is highly populated by Christians." I understand that as well, but shouldn't human rights be based on RIGHTS, not a BIBLE?! Then my brother got into the subject about how statistics state that domestic violence is HIGHER with gay couples compared to straight couples. WHAT THE FUCK?! Straight couples obviously outnumber the population of gay couples, how can you prove that that's entirely TRUE? Statistics doesn't include the whole country, I'm sure. Okay, so you're saying that we gotta vote "Yes" on prop 8 because if they get married, there will be more domestic violence? Violence occurs EVERYWHERE. No matter what, there is violence. Single, couples, gay, straight. Who the hell said MARRIAGE is gonna create more violence? If there are already gay couples out there living together, does that make a difference? The "married" title is going to cause more trouble? See, that I really didn't understand. We kept telling him that "Love is what matters in marriage. If they want to be together forever, why is it such a problem?" Apparently my brother's definition of "marriage" is something else. God knows. When my brother would state his opinion, Mark would respond with, "I understand." But when we stated OUR opinions, my brother would laugh at us and say that we make absolutely NO sense. He said we obviously have more to learn in this world. Riiiiiiiiiiiight. So that aggravated Mark. Mark kept telling me, "I don't understand how I can sit here and talk to him like an adult, but he talked back to me like I'm stupid." Mark was very passionate about stating his opinions about the proposition & didn't appreciate my brother mocking or laughing at him. I told Mark to calm down & relax, but it turned out to be another one of our fights. Of course I agree with everything Mark said (because I was stating my opinion half the time), but I got tired of talking and just wanted the whole thing to stop. If anyone is offended by reading this, DON'T BE. We are just strong about the situation. Even though it doesn't even involve us, we believe in equality and everyone sharing the same rights and happiness as the rest. We love everybody! And animals! (haha) Mark even said himself that when he was in his psychology class, his teacher asked, "Who believe that it's wrong to test on animals, including rats?" Who was the only person to raise his hand? Yep.

But yeah, Mark and I argued after the whole debate because he got mad at the fact that I kept teling him to calm down and be quiet. He kept thinking that I wasn't "on his side" which I obviously WAS if I was arguing with my brother as well, but Mark was too angry to understand it at first. He was so mad so he ended up going home at like 9pm while I was left alone (me and fetus) in my room. I stayed in my room all night and tried to sleep. Bleh.

So that was my weekend. Sorry about the huge paragraph over Proposition 8; I'm sure all you other "No on Prop 8" supporters fully understand. On another note, my sister's boss said that she's giving us a crib! That's pretty nice of her especially since I've never even met her at all. Another one of my sister's co-workers is giving us a bouncy chair. Aw. I love generous people. I appreciate all the support. About one more week & I'll be in my 2nd trimester! Crazy how time flies. There have been some nights when the nausea gets REALLY bad though. Ahhh, it drives me crazy. Just when I thought it was slowly going away, it comes back. Ah, the ups and downs of pregnancy.

Well, I guess I gotta wait until my sister and her bf decide to head home so I can tell Mark to pick me up. I'm bored. Sigh. Bye everyone!

Margaux...

...would've turned 1 year old yesterday. Today's her 1 month death anniversary so I dedicate this song to her. If you have ever seen I AM LEGEND starring Will Smith, this song plays when he was giving his German Shepherd Sam a bath, and he was singing it to her. *tears* She played his best friend throughout the movie until she died. That movie was what motivated me to get me a German Shepherd puppy. Even though it still makes me sad, I know that everything will be alright for her. I love you Margaux!

Vegas & Paramore: Update

Yeah, I have so much to write. I've been too lazy / tired. Vegas burnt me OUT! Nasty! And yesterday I was obviously too worn out to write. So where to begin...

Thursday, November 13, 2008
Thursday morning I woke up early around 8am to get everything ready for the trip. Man, I was sleepy. I made Mark wake up so I could finally gather up all the bathroom stuff that we'd need. By 10 we had everything ready, but we had to go run a few errands, and by 11am, I asked Mark, "Did you bring your wallet?" He's like, "Oh shit..no." "Are you lying?" "No, I really don't have my wallet." So we had to drive back from Carson for him to retrieve his wallet. ahhhhhhhhhh. Then by 11:20ish we finally hit the freeway. Check-in at the Luxor was at 3pm, and I was thinking we'd get there around 4. The drive was wearing me out since I woke up so early, and the air was so dry it was making it hard for me to breathe (it hurts when it's dry, if you know what I mean). So I fell asleep. Next thing I knew, we were already passed Barstow, and I asked Mark, "How long was I asleep for?" He told me, "20 minutes." WTF? Apparently he was driving somewhere over 100mph, so we ended up reaching Vegas at like 2:30. That was fast. And when we got to the Luxor, we had to carry all our luggages and it started hurting my back so I felt bad for Mark having to carry 5 bags on him. We totally forgot that we could've used valet parking so we were killing ourselves. Once we walked in the hotel, I had to cover my face with my sweater due to all the second hand smoke. I looked like a little girl. Whatever. I have to do whatever it takes to protect myself! Our room was on the 21st floor and ended up being on the complete opposite side of the elevator. AHHHHHHHH! I was already thinking, damn, this isn't going to be fun. When we opened our room, there were 2 full size beds. Not 1 king size bed like we reserved. I WAS LIKE WTF! Whatever. I didn't even wanna both complaining. Mark didn't care because the room was bigger anyway. Another thing that annoyed me: no wireless internet. I had to connect the ethernet cable to my laptop which wasn't even LONG so I had to drag a table in front of the TV, and stretch the cable out to connect. There wasn't an outlet nearby so I had to stretch my laptop charger across the tv and closet. Talk about ghetto. Another thing: NO REMOTE. What kinda fucking hotel room doesn't have a remote for their tv?! So Mark & I had to walk up to the tv and manually change the volume or channel. Yeah, we were pretty lazy to complain. I can complain and talk, but I didn't wanna have someone come up to our room. I was already too tired. Sigh. So for one thing, NO, I wouldn't wanna stay at the Luxor ever again, but we did have a nice view.

We went to the Carnival World Buffet at the Rio. It's a really popular buffet; many people love going there. When you walk in, you have to pay at this little computer screen where you can scan your credit card or place cash in. Imagine if it was a long line..it woud lag. But anyways, it was a Thursday night so there was no one in line (thankfully). I walked in and was in SHOCK by all the different and many kinds of foods all over the place. That place is big. I got everything I wanted on my plate(s), but once I tried the food, it didn't WOW me. Something was too salty or too plain or the flavor just wasn't right. There is a bunch of dessert to choose from as well; they even have a little gelato bar. Mark tried the mint chocolate chip..GROSS. I LOVE mint chocolate chip, but their version gave me the nastiest after taste. I thought I was gonna barf. That's how bad it was. Too strong. But their chocolate flavor was good; chocolate cake, yuck. Apple pie, good. Overall I give this place a 6/10. It's sad to say, but I even like Hometown Buffet better.

After dinner, we went to the Paris hotel and went up to the top of the Eiffel Tower. The view was pretty. We even got to see the Bellagio water show while we were there. It was nice. After that, I was pretty worn out. It was only 8pm, but being me, I can't be out for too long. So we went back to our hotel and called it a night. Mark was pretty tired, I'm sure; he only had like 4 hours of sleep before we left for Vegas.

PICTURES FROM THE PARIS HOTEL--from my Myspace.

Friday, November 14, 2008
It was already 10am and I had been up for an hour. I kept bugging Mark, WAKE UP WAKE UP! BABY IS HUNGRY!! DON'T KILL YOUR BABY! I was freakinnnnnnnnnn hungry! I didn't wanna order room service..that stuff is WAY too expensive. So finally by 12 he had his ass out of bed & got ready to go eat some brunch. We had IHOP (: I love that place. I always love their food. MMMmmm breakfast with pancakes. I love it. After breakfast, we headed to Caesar's Palace and parked our car. We decided to walk around the more southern part of the strip. We walked to the Wynn hotel to see what it was like inside. It's so fancy. And so pretty! Have you guys ever heard of the VERTU cell phone? Well the Wynn has an official Vertu shop, and these cell phones go for A LOT. A LOT A LOT. If you think $800 is a lot being spent on iPhones, shit, try $300,000!! LIKE WTF, RIGHT?! Here, watch this video:







Anyways, after we walked around the boutiques, we headed to the Ferrari/Maserati showrooms. Those cars are nice! Yeah, now if I wanted to spend $300,000 on something, it would at least be one of those cars. SHEESH! But yeah, this is the only authorized Ferrari dealership in Nevada. Nice stuff. He also had a Nissan GT-R..the Skyline! That thing is a beast.

After the Wynn, we decided to head back to our car, we walked around the mall then headed back to the car. I was dehydrated. Being pregnant gets in the way of a lot of things. I get too exhausted :( I told Mark that I really had a hard time walking! And I was wearing comfortable slippers & everything. It's just hard. A lot of walking tires me out. So we headed back to the hotel, took a short nap, and before I knew it, we had to go head out for some dinner & to the Blue Man Group show.

The Blue Man Group was soooooo fun! We had poncho seats, so we were in the 4th row. It's really fun being much close compared to the back. The back seemed bored, and everyone in the front rows were really interactive. It's funny watching their facial expressions too. Mark had a really good time; he said it was pretty much one of his favorite shows that he's seen. It was at 10pm, so when we got there, I had a HUGE headache (from being exhausted), but I enjoyed the show regardless. Good performance.

Saturday, November 15, 2008
I woke up around 6:30am realizing that Mark wasn't in the room. He went to play black jack..I KNEW IT! I had a feeling he'd come back soon, which he did, 10 minutes later. He lost $100 but he said he'd go back down. Yeah, whatever. Liar. I knew he was too tired because the next thing I know, he was snoring next to me. Mmm hmm. 3 hours later I woke up & had to prepare to pack all our stuff. We had to check-out by 11am, so poor Markie had to wake up after only a few hours of sleep. Once we checked out, I didn't know where to go! I had already eaten because I couldn't wait for him to wake up so I ordered that expensive room service crap. $16+ for just 2 pieces of ham, 2 toast, scrambled eggs, and hash browns. IHOP is wayy better. lol. But whatever, I couldn't let myself starve, right? Baby needs to eat! But yeah, we headed to the outlets so see what we could find. I found it sad how I couldn't shop for anything. Nothing fits anymore. There's no point in me buying shirts because my belly's popping. And I don't really care for pants because I was on my diet & still hadn't reached my goal. DAMNIT! But Mark went shopping at Zoo York & Ed Hardy/Christian Audigier. He got himself some nice clothes. I was sad. I couldn't get anything. After the outlets, we decided to rest in the car. Aj, Mark S., and Don weren't gonna leave until around 2pm, so we had to wait for them to get the Vegas because without Aj, we can't check into a hotel. I told Mark that WE should've reserved the hotel ourselves, damnit. I let Mark take a nap in the car outside the outlets, but then I got hungry so I wanted some Jollibee. After dinner, we called the guys to see where they were at. Mark & I were sitting in the Best Buy parking lot..waiting. Due to the fires in SoCal, there was traffic, so the guys didn't get to Vegas until around 8. We finally checked into our hotel room at the Tropicana. Wooooo ghetto hotel! It wreaked of cigarette smoke, but we had a little patio so the guys could go out & not pollute my baby. We had dinner at the ChinChin restaurant over at New York New York, and we had some ice cream. After that, I knew the guys wanted to go out and have some fun so we went back to the hotel, and I got myself ready for bed. They all went out to the MGM to go gamble.

I was having a hard time falling asleep. The bed wasn't comfortable, and since we were on the same level as the casino, I could smell the smoke. I was soooooooo aggravated, I wanted to cry. I had to cover my face with one of Mark's clean tshirts so avoid the smell while being able to breathe at the same time. I ended up getting a headache, and I had the feeling that I was going to get sick. It just wasn't a good sleep for me. I just wanted to go home already. I'm pregnant, not even 21, with nothing to do in Vegas. Mark & the guys finally got back around 5:30am, and they all knocked out.

Sunday, November 16, 2008
In the morning I woke up first, like always. I took my shower first since I knew the guys were all gonna take turns taking a shower before check-out time. Mark S. woke up 2nd, and then everyone else. Aj was talking in his sleep, and it was cracking me up. My Markie woke up with a hangover. Poor thing. Everyone told him to yack. I guess he did but it wasn't good enough. They wanted to eat at the World Buffet again. This time there was a line so it took a while to get seated -_- Sooooooo many people. I ate a few things, but not too much. It's so expensive, but if you can handle buffets then it's good for you. Mark was still feeling sick, and all he ate was 3/4 of a taco. He paid $25 for 3/4 of a taco and some orange juice. LOL. Poor guy. He could've gotten that at a Taco Bell. After brunch, we headed to the outlets again. Boring for me because like I said, I couldn't get anything.

Then finalllllllllllllllllly. FINALLY. We headed for home!!! We stopped by an In N Out around Barstow for some dinner and finally we reached home at around 10. I LOVE HOME!

Yesterday, Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I left around noon to go pick Ryan up in the valley. I got there, ordered me some take out at Mission Burrito (which is my family's favorite Mexican food restaurant), and we headed for Hollywood. We got there at 2pm, and the crowd wasn't as bad as a I thought. On the news the night before, people were saying how there were crowds CAMPING outside of Hot Topic. Like wtf? But I didn't think it would be so crowded, and it wasn't..just yet. Ryan & I showed our wristbands and stood/sat in the middle. We were pretttttttttttty damn close. SO close to the stage. I ate the rest of my food, and about 10 minutes later (around 3pm), I started feeling nauseous. It was strange. I felt like I needed to throw up, and that my head was spinning. I started getting dizzy, and I could barely talk, so I rushed out of the crowd to sit outside. I caught my breath. I wanted to lie down so bad. I was sweating, DRASTICALLY, all over my body. It was insane. I've never felt this way before ever since I've been pregnant. I was overheated. There were just so many people surrounding me, BIG PEOPLE even, and it was hard for me to breathe in there. I was losing oxygen. It was a scary moment. I was shaking, and I thought to myself of how I wish Mark was there ): I told Ryan to stay in the crowd so he could enjoy the show. I was so sad. I felt like damn, I should just go home afterwards. I felt horrible. Just feeling like that sorta killed my day already.

After an hour, I decided to back in through the gates, but I decided to stay in the back and not bother going to the front. I didn't wanna get overheated again or have people start pushing around once Paramore came out to play. I decided to sit some more because I found it hard to stand for a long time. My legs would start shaking if I did. Once Paramore came out was when I got closer in with the crowd. Kristen Stewert (who I'm sure you all know plays Bella in the upcoming movie Twilight) and some other chick who I forget her name was (yeah, that's how much I pay attention) introduced Paramore. They played Decode, Pressure, That's What You Get, & Misery Business. Afterwards, us with the yellow wristbands lined up for the meet&greet. It literally lasted a second long. Security would constantly bug us to quickly keep moving on forward, and we couldn't get anything personalized. I even brought the vinyl, but they couldn't signed it. I said HI to the band, and walked away. Some girls were crazy, coming out screaming and jumping and shrieking because they were so happy to meet Paramore. HAHAHA. Maybe it's because I've seen Paramore so much this year that it doesn't surprise me THAT much, but it was nice seeing them personally.

I couldn't find Ryan since he doesn't have a cell phone, but he finally reached me through a payphone as I was walking to my car. I figured that he'd probably be at my car since we both know where it's at. I was feeling a lot better so we decided to stay in line for Jimmy Kimmel. We waited over 2 hours, from 5:30-7:50 almost, to get in. JEEZ! Last time we saw Paramore in April, we didn't have to wait that long. I gotta admit, I had a much better time seeing them in April. This crowd was RIDICULOUS. They were rude and disgusting. People constantly shoving me to the point where I couldn't even lift my arms, and I started pushing everyone back telling them to GET THE FUCK OFF ME. I decided to get myself out of the crowd & stay by the back. The view was better because while in the crowd, my neck was hurting because I couldn't see. Ryan & I left during their last song (Let The Flames Begin), and we headed back to the valley. Ate dinner with friends at Dennys, and I headed home. I was toooooo tired.

Once I got home, I watched Paramore on Jimmy Kimmel on ABC and knocked out.

PICTURES FROM THE LOST SHOW / JIMMY KIMMEL--from my Myspace

SO HERE I AM! Tired, bored, hungry, the usual. But glad that I'm finally home & resting. My belly is getting bigger; I'm starting to see stretchmarks..wahhh! Anyways, I gotta study all day. I have a test to submit by tomorrow. Have a good day everyone!